[ check the body before it gets cold! ]
sweet jesus.
life is full of its ups and downs and further downs and then that kind of up where youre lodged between two branches of a tree and realize either the tree got bigger, or you did, because after you got your appendix out you could climb this thing no problem and slip between the branches like water between fingers.
yep.
so, apparently the only people i can count on are my parents, rachel, sarah, tom, and josiah. [josiah?!] yeah, i know.
at least, when he makes a promise to hang out with me or see me, he shows up regardless of how late it is or who he has to blow off to do so.
as for the rest of you? i can only say i am incredibly disappointed. out of the TWELVE people that has promised me they would write the day for the MSI concert on their calendars and take the day off, not a single solitary one did, save for sarah. rachel got a job that requires she works every single night and for this, she is excused. sarah's job couldnt give her the night off, but she TRIED, and for this, she is excused. most of my friends out here couldnt afford it, and dont listen to MSI.
basically, i cant help but feel forgotten. i cant help but feel resentful at being forgotten.
go ahead, accuse me of never calling, but did you ever think for one second of calling me? I always let you all know when im coming back to brighton to see you. did you ever think of maybe coming out and visiting me? the only people who have done this for me are sarah, nick, shea, and briana.
i have been going through a lot of hell mentally and emotionally lately, but does a single soul who i once called best friend, who i once called family, even care to drop a line? spare a call? even text me to see how things are?
I guess Im dead since I moved away. I try to call, text, whathaveyou, but no one replies anymore. Those who I once loved, have forgotten me. I guess I should have expected this, but I thought better of you all.
in other news, tomorrow i am going to be psychologically evaluated and tested, to see about being medicated for schizoaffective disorder.
I will be bringing some people to necto next monday, but will not have free time for anyone after that as i am only staying the one night.
I will be moving most of my stuff into my house starting the 1st.
i will be in brighton july 7th for a week or so, but will be moving stuff from brighton to grand rapids for one of those days. if you can do some heavy lifting to help my dad, brother, and myself, it would be wonderful if you could follow us in another vehicle or something since the van will be full.
i dont feel like writing a conclusion or a goodbye, motherfuckers.
life is full of its ups and downs and further downs and then that kind of up where youre lodged between two branches of a tree and realize either the tree got bigger, or you did, because after you got your appendix out you could climb this thing no problem and slip between the branches like water between fingers.
yep.
so, apparently the only people i can count on are my parents, rachel, sarah, tom, and josiah. [josiah?!] yeah, i know.
at least, when he makes a promise to hang out with me or see me, he shows up regardless of how late it is or who he has to blow off to do so.
as for the rest of you? i can only say i am incredibly disappointed. out of the TWELVE people that has promised me they would write the day for the MSI concert on their calendars and take the day off, not a single solitary one did, save for sarah. rachel got a job that requires she works every single night and for this, she is excused. sarah's job couldnt give her the night off, but she TRIED, and for this, she is excused. most of my friends out here couldnt afford it, and dont listen to MSI.
basically, i cant help but feel forgotten. i cant help but feel resentful at being forgotten.
go ahead, accuse me of never calling, but did you ever think for one second of calling me? I always let you all know when im coming back to brighton to see you. did you ever think of maybe coming out and visiting me? the only people who have done this for me are sarah, nick, shea, and briana.
i have been going through a lot of hell mentally and emotionally lately, but does a single soul who i once called best friend, who i once called family, even care to drop a line? spare a call? even text me to see how things are?
I guess Im dead since I moved away. I try to call, text, whathaveyou, but no one replies anymore. Those who I once loved, have forgotten me. I guess I should have expected this, but I thought better of you all.
in other news, tomorrow i am going to be psychologically evaluated and tested, to see about being medicated for schizoaffective disorder.
I will be bringing some people to necto next monday, but will not have free time for anyone after that as i am only staying the one night.
I will be moving most of my stuff into my house starting the 1st.
i will be in brighton july 7th for a week or so, but will be moving stuff from brighton to grand rapids for one of those days. if you can do some heavy lifting to help my dad, brother, and myself, it would be wonderful if you could follow us in another vehicle or something since the van will be full.
i dont feel like writing a conclusion or a goodbye, motherfuckers.