Venting Time
The saying goes "One step foward brings you ten steps back." And its very true. I thought I was getting somewhere with Maisano... the only this I was getting was used. He fucking kissed a fucking UGLY girl in front of me. He's such an assole. "I haven't been leadin you on" he says. BULL SHIT. He is killing me nvm leading me on. I have no heart to ever give anyone ever again. It's been shattered into so many pieces that I don't think it would ever be possible to put it back together. I don't know how anyone ever feels the same again after being so hurt. I feel so broken. I don't know how I can still think there might be hope. There isn't any hope. Its DONE. Why can't I just get the through my thick pathetic skull. Idk I think I'm a really good person. Why is this happening to me? Here's something else that sucks...
The office at the campground burnt down friday night. Done. Completely gone. Everything has been lost. And I never think how much is really in there until its alllll gone. The dvd rentals, pens and markers and photocopiers, computers, all the inventory, all the crafts, decorations for our themed weekends, austin's apartment is gone... all of his belongings EVERYTHING. There is so much that's gone. We have to start from scratch. My favortie job and my favorite ppl have to deal with such tragedy. I hope they're doing ok now. I know when I saw it I just started crying.
On a lighter note I'm going to kansas next week for thanksgiving. Shane's mom lives down there so we're gonna visit. I'm nervous because of money and being away and missing my family and being on a bus for a day and a half. EWWWWW. Ok well I'm gonna go bc I'm typing this whole thing on my sidekick. Lol
Leave some love <3
The office at the campground burnt down friday night. Done. Completely gone. Everything has been lost. And I never think how much is really in there until its alllll gone. The dvd rentals, pens and markers and photocopiers, computers, all the inventory, all the crafts, decorations for our themed weekends, austin's apartment is gone... all of his belongings EVERYTHING. There is so much that's gone. We have to start from scratch. My favortie job and my favorite ppl have to deal with such tragedy. I hope they're doing ok now. I know when I saw it I just started crying.
On a lighter note I'm going to kansas next week for thanksgiving. Shane's mom lives down there so we're gonna visit. I'm nervous because of money and being away and missing my family and being on a bus for a day and a half. EWWWWW. Ok well I'm gonna go bc I'm typing this whole thing on my sidekick. Lol
Leave some love <3