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I strive to separate what people do from who they are. In other words, I may hate something someone does, but not the person themselves. I'm having trouble with this regarding my sister.
It's hard to separate what people say they believe from who they are. It's especially difficult with they say it with such violent opposition to anything that differs from what they believe.
I have figured out that what I feel is shame... I am ashamed of her and how she acts. I am ashamed of her close-minded bigotry. I am ashamed of how and WHAT she screams at her children. I am ashamed that she is raising her children to believe the same ways.
I am ashamed to be related to her.
How that coming from a 'non-judgmental' person like me, huh? yea rite. Again, I must catch myself and remind myself to not judge. It's hard when it's thrown in your face.
I am still feeling a bit disconnected from my peace. I'm glad my spirit sisters are coming tonite. I need their nurturing to find my way back.
It's hard to separate what people say they believe from who they are. It's especially difficult with they say it with such violent opposition to anything that differs from what they believe.
I have figured out that what I feel is shame... I am ashamed of her and how she acts. I am ashamed of her close-minded bigotry. I am ashamed of how and WHAT she screams at her children. I am ashamed that she is raising her children to believe the same ways.
I am ashamed to be related to her.
How that coming from a 'non-judgmental' person like me, huh? yea rite. Again, I must catch myself and remind myself to not judge. It's hard when it's thrown in your face.
I am still feeling a bit disconnected from my peace. I'm glad my spirit sisters are coming tonite. I need their nurturing to find my way back.