Angry Post....you were warned!
I just don't get it. ::bangs head against the table:: I really don't understand what it is exactly that my husband wants from me. He told me to leave M.E. so I did. He told me to leave the spa but not without finding a new job, so I did that and tonight he actually had the balls to say that he thinks I should go back to Linda for work. WTF!!! There is NO WAY IN HELL I would EVER go crawling back to that BITCH for work!! I told him NO! He picked the WORST time to start a conversation on this subject ( or any negative one for that matter). I took the clomid today and I'm not sure if the frustration and urge to cry over this crap is me, or the med already doing it's busy work. I know he's worried about the finances, I am too. I guess I am going to have to go looking for some crap part time job and work my ass off those lovely three days a week I had planed to use for cleaning the house and yes pleanty of SITTING ON MY ASS time. ::sigh:: What is it with things lately?? Every time I think something good is coming my way something plows right over and fucks it over nicely. Gods DAMN IT!! I sick of it, really truely sick of getting shat on!!! Let someone else have a shit puddle for a while. I just want to be happy, do what I love as a career and yes make money at it. And just to roll the dice a bit YES I WOULD FUCKING LOVE TO GET PREGNANT!!! The joy of never again having to hear just RELAX and it will happen will be worth the hours I spend in labor just to be like, THERE now LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!