Heaven's Here On Earth
It's time for an update. . . .and it's time for a HAPPY update at that! Holy lord, I was in such a bad place when I wrote that last entry. There have only been a few times when I have seriously been afraid for my life, and that was one of them.
But things are really good now. I am in SUCH a good place. It's funny that my turn around came in conjunction with a lot of unfortunate things. I got into a car accident. My car is trashed and it's costing my dad a lot of money. I got really sick right before finals. I think I caught the flu. It was so ironic to be fighting so hard to eat and to NOT throw up. It's just not so much fun when it's not your choice. Not that it's so great when it is. Well, whatever
I had to miss one of my vocal competitions because I was too weak to even stand, let alone sing. That was kind of crappy
But things have been really good. Despite all of that. I've been happy. Peaceful. Calm. I really love it. I love not struggling to keep up with life. Everything is where it's supposed to be. And if it's not. . . .well, it will be okay. Everything will be okay.
I went to my first dance class in 5 months yesterday. I took 3 classes in a row. . . .3 hours of straight dancing. Holy fuck am I sore!! It was fun, though. I swear to god, there's nothing like dancing
It is very very likely that I am going to New York this summer. 7 weeks
yeah baby
It makes me happy that I am going to be healthy enough to go. I consider that a major accomplishment
Oh my god
I have such a crush right now
I've actually been infatuated for quite sometime, since last year, but it's something that I've put on the back burner, because it's just never going to work out the way I'd want it to
I almost like not doing anything about it
I like keeping my little crush
It's fun
But
oh. . . .my . . . .god
so hot!
you have no idea
Yeah, I like that it's mine to keep
A lover you can lose
But attraction is something that no one else has control over
Usually you don't have control over it either
haha
But things are really good now. I am in SUCH a good place. It's funny that my turn around came in conjunction with a lot of unfortunate things. I got into a car accident. My car is trashed and it's costing my dad a lot of money. I got really sick right before finals. I think I caught the flu. It was so ironic to be fighting so hard to eat and to NOT throw up. It's just not so much fun when it's not your choice. Not that it's so great when it is. Well, whatever
I had to miss one of my vocal competitions because I was too weak to even stand, let alone sing. That was kind of crappy
But things have been really good. Despite all of that. I've been happy. Peaceful. Calm. I really love it. I love not struggling to keep up with life. Everything is where it's supposed to be. And if it's not. . . .well, it will be okay. Everything will be okay.
I went to my first dance class in 5 months yesterday. I took 3 classes in a row. . . .3 hours of straight dancing. Holy fuck am I sore!! It was fun, though. I swear to god, there's nothing like dancing
It is very very likely that I am going to New York this summer. 7 weeks
yeah baby
It makes me happy that I am going to be healthy enough to go. I consider that a major accomplishment
Oh my god
I have such a crush right now
I've actually been infatuated for quite sometime, since last year, but it's something that I've put on the back burner, because it's just never going to work out the way I'd want it to
I almost like not doing anything about it
I like keeping my little crush
It's fun
But
oh. . . .my . . . .god
so hot!
you have no idea
Yeah, I like that it's mine to keep
A lover you can lose
But attraction is something that no one else has control over
Usually you don't have control over it either
haha