transitions
moving out of anger,(fear?) and into sorrow.(resignation?)
that being said, if i'm less than social in the coming weeks, don't be worried. i'm just a slightly gimp processor. at the moment.
just to explain the past post, and the present resignition, a friend of mine/an almost husband of my sister's, od-ed this past week.
this makes number three, this year, for me.
please. i love you all. please don't ever touch heroin.
on an entirely different note, i had a most amazing weekend. i was afraid that my processor would short-circuit, and i would just shock and hurt the people that i was around. instead, i found wonderful, supportive friends every direction i turned, who were willing to hold my handheadbody as i cried, and who were also willing to keep me lovingly and wholly distracted, mindbodyandsoul. i am so. so. so grateful.
i also made the decision to drop/fail a 1-credit course that i was taking, and that has relieved my mind more than i can express. i still plan on reading those books, but to not have to worry about a deadline which i had no chance of meeting is such a big relief.
my biggest problem at the moment is that i wish i were home with my family. for all of us. we all really need to pull together and relax and breathe, and knowing that spring break is coming in less than two-weeks isn't enough. is just torment. i find myself calling/texting/emailing with them constantly, everyday. i just wish that they/i were closer.
:/
all my love,
me.
that being said, if i'm less than social in the coming weeks, don't be worried. i'm just a slightly gimp processor. at the moment.
just to explain the past post, and the present resignition, a friend of mine/an almost husband of my sister's, od-ed this past week.
this makes number three, this year, for me.
please. i love you all. please don't ever touch heroin.
on an entirely different note, i had a most amazing weekend. i was afraid that my processor would short-circuit, and i would just shock and hurt the people that i was around. instead, i found wonderful, supportive friends every direction i turned, who were willing to hold my handheadbody as i cried, and who were also willing to keep me lovingly and wholly distracted, mindbodyandsoul. i am so. so. so grateful.
i also made the decision to drop/fail a 1-credit course that i was taking, and that has relieved my mind more than i can express. i still plan on reading those books, but to not have to worry about a deadline which i had no chance of meeting is such a big relief.
my biggest problem at the moment is that i wish i were home with my family. for all of us. we all really need to pull together and relax and breathe, and knowing that spring break is coming in less than two-weeks isn't enough. is just torment. i find myself calling/texting/emailing with them constantly, everyday. i just wish that they/i were closer.
:/
all my love,
me.