i am sixteen, going on seventeen (a retrospective)

[faeriemaiden]

The sun is going down on the last day of my sixteenth year. I am looking back, poking through the rag-bag of memory, and trying to understand what it is that this year has given me.

I am ritualistic by nature. A day is not a thing that happens: it's an event. Things must be prepared. And things mean things. Birthdays and new years and memorial

Comments

[safebox]

Oh wow, even by your standards this is beautiful entry.

Happy birthday, Banui - I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful day. &hearts

[midenianscholar]

You being sentimental makes me be sentimental, which makes me want to talk about my birthday, but normally by the time mine comes around it's all worn off and I'm too lazy to write it all.

I do think God gives us little things to pull through the big ones. On the train I started writing a list of the moments when I've been completely happy. (Oddly, this is mostly in the car with Switchfoot blaring.) I meant to type it up, and probably should, but I haven't gotten around to it yet. (There's also that Deep Thoughts on Love and Suffering waiting-to-be-typed thing. I have too many journals and I loose track.)

ANYWAY. Happy birthday! I sent your lovely package on Friday so it should be there by Tuesday at the latest, I think. There's a nice surprise in it that I didn't think of until the last minute. I'll be happy to explain once you open it up. :)

[liveonthesun]

You're such a beautiful person, Jolene, and I thoroughly admire you for it.

♥

[travellers_home]

I was going to wait until tomorrow, but since I'm leaving the house at 6am and likely won't be back til an abominably late hour, I'm sending my birthday wishes a few hours early. ♥♥♥

And me being terribly sentimental and not half pretentious, but then what are holidays for?

Indeed. I always feel odd in those sentimental/nostalgic/pretentious moments, but really, what harm do they do? I think sometimes we need to let ourselves be that way. (Though for me it rarely has anything to do with holidays; mostly it's things I see or hear in everyday life that gets me started.)

Anyway, have a lovely day. ♥♥♥

[sirwynai]

Happy birthday!! I hope that you have a great year, XD

And I do have to say that I loved reading this entry, it was so beautiful.