the "approaching 30 blues"?
I don't know what's wrong with me. I have been in a such a "down" mood for the past week or so and I can't seem to shake it. I can't get into a mood where I don't feel like crying every 10 minutes! Part of it is most likely PMS but there has got to be something else behind this than just my fucking hormones. Right? If there is though, I can't figure out exactly why... I have been having trouble sleeping and my back has been particularly achy... but that can't be it... can it?
I have also been reading my old LJ post... back from the beginning... jesus h. christ I'm retarded. How are you people my friends? I sound like the most flighty and stupid woman! *sigh* I really need to delete those old posts, so I never read them again. They make me depressed... in addition to everything I do that makes me feel stupid. Like breathing. >_<
I will be 30 in less than a month. Wow. 30... I didn't think it would bother me at all but I think it is. I don't know what I want to do for the occasion. I've toyed with the idea of leaving town for the weekend and going to Mendocino. But I also don't want to blow a bunch of money that I don't need to... I'm thinking I would rather save that money (several 100 dollars) so Robert and I can start looking for a house to rent. I'm getting the "I freakin hate our tiny apartment" feeling.
ugh. I need a vacation.
I have also been reading my old LJ post... back from the beginning... jesus h. christ I'm retarded. How are you people my friends? I sound like the most flighty and stupid woman! *sigh* I really need to delete those old posts, so I never read them again. They make me depressed... in addition to everything I do that makes me feel stupid. Like breathing. >_<
I will be 30 in less than a month. Wow. 30... I didn't think it would bother me at all but I think it is. I don't know what I want to do for the occasion. I've toyed with the idea of leaving town for the weekend and going to Mendocino. But I also don't want to blow a bunch of money that I don't need to... I'm thinking I would rather save that money (several 100 dollars) so Robert and I can start looking for a house to rent. I'm getting the "I freakin hate our tiny apartment" feeling.
ugh. I need a vacation.