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I hate that you lied to me. "Oh...no time for a gf. I'm under too much stress." I hate that you make me feel this way and that you don't care. I hate that I BEGGED you to take me back and you let me. I humiliated myself in front of you and you let me. I wish I had never IMed you after so long just to see what was up. None of this would have ever happened and I would still be happy. I wish I had listened to all those people who said you were bad for me. I hate that they were right. I stood up for you. I trusted you and thought you trusted me too. I thought I was going to be the one to change you. You said you wanted change for me. Liar. And now you're back to where you started...at your dad's smoking your life away. Stoner. I hate that I still feel this way about you...that I still care so much about you. I don't want to worry about you getting so high you do something you regret or get caught by the police again. Make me stop caring. Please.