"High above the mucky-muck, castle made of clouds..."
Its been a long week and a half. Some good, some bad, but more than anything, I am beat right now.
Work continues to be full of highs and lows. I'm frustrated with my situation, probably because I feel powerless to change it without just leaving and getting a new job. On the one hand, it would make me feel lovely and grown up to have a "real job" that started on monday and ended on friday most of the time. On the other hand, I feel the work I do here is important. I'm tired of crises and I'm tired of "well, Leslie's gonna have to come in." I'm tired of feeling like I don't make a fair wage for the amount of commitment/skill/time/stress that is required of me for this job. I keep saying I've decided to look for another job. Nothing gets me excited when I do. I really do love this industry, but I don't know if I can keep this up.
Friday was an exhausting day. My bank charged me $175 in "insufficient funds fees" for transactions that happened after I made a deposit, because they had a hold placed on a bunch of the money that I deposited. Thats just not fair. I spent a long time arguing with customer service people about it, and eventually hung up on someone. I went into the branch in Silver Spring and talked to the manager there. He couldn't help me, but told me I should talk to the branch manager where I opened my account. That guy is out on vacation, so I have to wait for him to come back on Monday, we'll see if he can help me at all. $175 is a lot of money. More than the pre-reg fees for Pensic. Then that night, I realized that my Mac isn't really charging. Grr. I can get a new power cord for it for free though and that should take care of it, and Jesse seems to have gotten it going at least on a temporary basis.
This "weekend" was really good. After nine days of going into work, I spent an entire day not seeing the Co-op. Friday night was "lets make new garb" night. I managed to make a new tunic for both Jesse and I. Then we went to "Highland Foorde Melees" on Saturday which was a really nice event. We rode with Gaspar and Aularia, who are super nice and into all kinds of fun stuff that we are too. We'll start playing Deadlands with them soon. It was funny as we were talking to them coming back in the car, they have had so many of the same battles that we've had with parents, and non-sense, and just stuff.
The whole day was just really nice and very relaxing and fun for me. We helped set up the day shade, helped "theush"it up. I am totally in love with the "thjuugh" phase - spelled medievally, and therefore different everytime and can't be spelled wrong. :-) And then mostly hung out underneath said day shade. We walked around a bit, watched some very boring rapier, shopped, and then went back to hanging out under the day shade. Eventually met up with Orlaith and Tirzah (yay for fun people who are teaching me bobbin lace) and introduced Aularia and them to each other since she wants to learn bobbin lace too. We skipped court, and then bailed pretty much right after. Jesse, Gaspar, Aularia, Their Excellencies and Jessica (who is Baroness Elizabeth's daughter and our age), and I torn down the day shade, and schlepped the stuff off the field and into their truck in no time flat. After that, we all went to this adorable Beirgarten in Hagerstown that we found by getting lost earlier in the day. The food was a little bit expensive, but really really good. It was lots of story telling and laughing. Jesse now seems to have gained the unofficial title of Baronial Sleeper.
Today I went back to work. I was really braindead the whole time I was there. I kept trying to do something and then forgetting halfway through. I left early because I was just being stupid and not accomplishing much. I also knew that there was a planning meeting going on for Novice Tournament, which I decided to go to. Now I'm in charge of parking at that event - I'm a little nervous about that, I don't know all of what and how I'm supposed to do that, but I'll do my best. And I'm making little Drekkars out of sculpty for newcomers tokens - yay for crafting to donate something. I love that I'm really able to be a part of things here, after melting down during my time as seneschal of Saint Joan I never really felt like I could go back. I never really tried, but I never felt like I would be able to if I did. I feel comfortable to fully participate and be a part of things here. Probably related to the whole, didn't want to commit too fully to anything in Ohio, because I really didn't want to be there or be tied to there. But I'm getting off on a tangent. After the planning meeting, I went to dinner with a bunch of people that were there, where we talked more about the event and other SCA nonsense. Went to the Baronial Meeting after that. So much SCA goodness over the last week and the coming week. I'm really looking forward to being more and more involved.
I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life and what I'm doing with it lately. Its been great to realize the possibility in life again. Even on the days I feel at my worst, at some point I go to myself "self, think about where you've been. You're going where you want to go (ish), and you're on a path you're enjoying while you're at it. Go you, self."
Anyways, I'm just gonna cut this off here. Because its getting really long. I'm looking forward to the rest of this week, Fight Practice, Embroidery night, and A & S night, Saturday possibly Celtic Festival, but its a lot more money than I was expecting. And then next weekend I get to see my Anne! Yay!
Work continues to be full of highs and lows. I'm frustrated with my situation, probably because I feel powerless to change it without just leaving and getting a new job. On the one hand, it would make me feel lovely and grown up to have a "real job" that started on monday and ended on friday most of the time. On the other hand, I feel the work I do here is important. I'm tired of crises and I'm tired of "well, Leslie's gonna have to come in." I'm tired of feeling like I don't make a fair wage for the amount of commitment/skill/time/stress that is required of me for this job. I keep saying I've decided to look for another job. Nothing gets me excited when I do. I really do love this industry, but I don't know if I can keep this up.
Friday was an exhausting day. My bank charged me $175 in "insufficient funds fees" for transactions that happened after I made a deposit, because they had a hold placed on a bunch of the money that I deposited. Thats just not fair. I spent a long time arguing with customer service people about it, and eventually hung up on someone. I went into the branch in Silver Spring and talked to the manager there. He couldn't help me, but told me I should talk to the branch manager where I opened my account. That guy is out on vacation, so I have to wait for him to come back on Monday, we'll see if he can help me at all. $175 is a lot of money. More than the pre-reg fees for Pensic. Then that night, I realized that my Mac isn't really charging. Grr. I can get a new power cord for it for free though and that should take care of it, and Jesse seems to have gotten it going at least on a temporary basis.
This "weekend" was really good. After nine days of going into work, I spent an entire day not seeing the Co-op. Friday night was "lets make new garb" night. I managed to make a new tunic for both Jesse and I. Then we went to "Highland Foorde Melees" on Saturday which was a really nice event. We rode with Gaspar and Aularia, who are super nice and into all kinds of fun stuff that we are too. We'll start playing Deadlands with them soon. It was funny as we were talking to them coming back in the car, they have had so many of the same battles that we've had with parents, and non-sense, and just stuff.
The whole day was just really nice and very relaxing and fun for me. We helped set up the day shade, helped "theush"it up. I am totally in love with the "thjuugh" phase - spelled medievally, and therefore different everytime and can't be spelled wrong. :-) And then mostly hung out underneath said day shade. We walked around a bit, watched some very boring rapier, shopped, and then went back to hanging out under the day shade. Eventually met up with Orlaith and Tirzah (yay for fun people who are teaching me bobbin lace) and introduced Aularia and them to each other since she wants to learn bobbin lace too. We skipped court, and then bailed pretty much right after. Jesse, Gaspar, Aularia, Their Excellencies and Jessica (who is Baroness Elizabeth's daughter and our age), and I torn down the day shade, and schlepped the stuff off the field and into their truck in no time flat. After that, we all went to this adorable Beirgarten in Hagerstown that we found by getting lost earlier in the day. The food was a little bit expensive, but really really good. It was lots of story telling and laughing. Jesse now seems to have gained the unofficial title of Baronial Sleeper.
Today I went back to work. I was really braindead the whole time I was there. I kept trying to do something and then forgetting halfway through. I left early because I was just being stupid and not accomplishing much. I also knew that there was a planning meeting going on for Novice Tournament, which I decided to go to. Now I'm in charge of parking at that event - I'm a little nervous about that, I don't know all of what and how I'm supposed to do that, but I'll do my best. And I'm making little Drekkars out of sculpty for newcomers tokens - yay for crafting to donate something. I love that I'm really able to be a part of things here, after melting down during my time as seneschal of Saint Joan I never really felt like I could go back. I never really tried, but I never felt like I would be able to if I did. I feel comfortable to fully participate and be a part of things here. Probably related to the whole, didn't want to commit too fully to anything in Ohio, because I really didn't want to be there or be tied to there. But I'm getting off on a tangent. After the planning meeting, I went to dinner with a bunch of people that were there, where we talked more about the event and other SCA nonsense. Went to the Baronial Meeting after that. So much SCA goodness over the last week and the coming week. I'm really looking forward to being more and more involved.
I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life and what I'm doing with it lately. Its been great to realize the possibility in life again. Even on the days I feel at my worst, at some point I go to myself "self, think about where you've been. You're going where you want to go (ish), and you're on a path you're enjoying while you're at it. Go you, self."
Anyways, I'm just gonna cut this off here. Because its getting really long. I'm looking forward to the rest of this week, Fight Practice, Embroidery night, and A & S night, Saturday possibly Celtic Festival, but its a lot more money than I was expecting. And then next weekend I get to see my Anne! Yay!