the sunrise

[faeriechild]

The thing about living in a subburb of a city that is really nothing but subburbs is that the idea of staying up all night to see the sunrise is that you can't even really see it rise cause theres this sickly glow everywhere. Its quarter to four and I can't see the point in staying up to see the sun rise. But I don't know if I'll bother to go bed before then either. It seems like to much effort and like it will take more energy and will than I have to do either one.

I don't think I have it in me to see the good of anything anymore.

I can't stand to be alone in my mind anymore.
I need out.