My apologies fall upon deaf ears

[faeriechan]

Words that are not mine o say
are dripping from my lips
and they are burning you like acid
this is my betrayal

With each syllable I hate myself
a little more, for each knife in your back
and if I could drink away your pain
I would dehydrate you

I have your forgiveness
but the trust is lost forever
and I weep for the conversations lost
the connection I blame myself for destroying

The shame of my actions
is breeding fear in my heart
and I bit my tongue
till I drown in blood

afraid to speak again,
I want to beg you to stay
to lay with me like before
but my company is no longer desired.