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Fucking tags....What the hell are they anyways?
Anyways...I don't remember exactly what I wrote but I think it was something along the lines of this...
My "Shell" is what caused colin to chose me, to attack me. You know that little thing that apparently makes me the little cold hearted evil coniving bitch that I am? Yeah that thing. For christ sake....Most of ya'll know my mother....If not personally, then by what I have described her as in this thing...
My mother is a bitch, she is proud to be a bitch. She will only show you respect if you give a good reason to show her respect. She has no regard for most of the fuck-tards in this world because there is no reason to. And well, you know what they say...."Like mother...like daughter." I am a bitch by nature...I am very fucking proud to be the bitch that I am because people tend to leave me be in my own little corner.
Now, very few people have broken my barrier because I chose to let them...that or else their very intent on finding out who I really am. Now there is one of you, that choses to say that he is friend when in all reality he is a foe...Or at least at this time. (You know what they say, Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.)
Now this foe...seems to think that I am only in a shell when I am being a bitch...but thats not true...at all. And at the moment I have every reason to believe that his only intent is to destroy me. He used to be a rather good friend. In fact we even dated a few times...I trusted him that much. He proved to me that he was worthy of my time, respect and care by breaking through my barrier, no matter how many times I shot him down or tried to hurt him. He kept trying. And I even found myself in love with him. But then he gave up...and the other side came through. This other side I must say is quite the bastard. And asshole if you will. As soon as he came out...he started making comments about my looks, tearing me down at every chance he got. In fact tonight, he came to my work...and as he thought talked to me for two hours. In all reality I felt threatened, i felt that I was being harrassed. And well I couldn't run because i was at work.
He seems to think that he can make me a goddess. But, I was a goddess when his other side was here. I felt cared for....needed, he told me I was beautiful when i needed to hear it, Kissed me when I needed to be kissed to show me that he cared, held me when i needed to be held, in his eyes...(I believe) I was a goddess.
Now...thats gone. I feel threatened by that same person. I wanted to rash out scream tonight. Hide in a corner and cry for hours.
I've said it before and now i say it again. If this is what love brings....Love can go fuck itself in the ass with a bit pointy stick. Love is no more then a fucking joke. Used only to get is fucking wanted then to destroy, slowly...so it can watch as a person dies slowly inside.
I put a challange out...to you. If you think you can turn me into a goddess and make so that someone will care for the same way that you used to...do it. Or try more say.
And to the rest of you...stop trying to break through my barrier....I beg of you. I cannot take any more pain and suffering of someone caring for me. I shall take me leave now...I am actually quite tired.
Goodnight.
MiNX
Anyways...I don't remember exactly what I wrote but I think it was something along the lines of this...
My "Shell" is what caused colin to chose me, to attack me. You know that little thing that apparently makes me the little cold hearted evil coniving bitch that I am? Yeah that thing. For christ sake....Most of ya'll know my mother....If not personally, then by what I have described her as in this thing...
My mother is a bitch, she is proud to be a bitch. She will only show you respect if you give a good reason to show her respect. She has no regard for most of the fuck-tards in this world because there is no reason to. And well, you know what they say...."Like mother...like daughter." I am a bitch by nature...I am very fucking proud to be the bitch that I am because people tend to leave me be in my own little corner.
Now, very few people have broken my barrier because I chose to let them...that or else their very intent on finding out who I really am. Now there is one of you, that choses to say that he is friend when in all reality he is a foe...Or at least at this time. (You know what they say, Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.)
Now this foe...seems to think that I am only in a shell when I am being a bitch...but thats not true...at all. And at the moment I have every reason to believe that his only intent is to destroy me. He used to be a rather good friend. In fact we even dated a few times...I trusted him that much. He proved to me that he was worthy of my time, respect and care by breaking through my barrier, no matter how many times I shot him down or tried to hurt him. He kept trying. And I even found myself in love with him. But then he gave up...and the other side came through. This other side I must say is quite the bastard. And asshole if you will. As soon as he came out...he started making comments about my looks, tearing me down at every chance he got. In fact tonight, he came to my work...and as he thought talked to me for two hours. In all reality I felt threatened, i felt that I was being harrassed. And well I couldn't run because i was at work.
He seems to think that he can make me a goddess. But, I was a goddess when his other side was here. I felt cared for....needed, he told me I was beautiful when i needed to hear it, Kissed me when I needed to be kissed to show me that he cared, held me when i needed to be held, in his eyes...(I believe) I was a goddess.
Now...thats gone. I feel threatened by that same person. I wanted to rash out scream tonight. Hide in a corner and cry for hours.
I've said it before and now i say it again. If this is what love brings....Love can go fuck itself in the ass with a bit pointy stick. Love is no more then a fucking joke. Used only to get is fucking wanted then to destroy, slowly...so it can watch as a person dies slowly inside.
I put a challange out...to you. If you think you can turn me into a goddess and make so that someone will care for the same way that you used to...do it. Or try more say.
And to the rest of you...stop trying to break through my barrier....I beg of you. I cannot take any more pain and suffering of someone caring for me. I shall take me leave now...I am actually quite tired.
Goodnight.
MiNX