So then....boys and such.
Now then....I'm still alive. I'm on new meds cuz I went insane again and had to be re-evaluated twice. Yeah....they took me to the hospit and ran all these tests and took all this blood and did and ekg. Damn doctors at West Pines told the hospital i took to much asprin....which...considering i'm a pill popper on occasion, is true. Anyways. I'm better now. Kinda. Still have a ways to go with treatment but it's getting easier day by day and i don't cry any more.
But the boy. He became my pet human....and my play thing. But either way....Things turned out I'm ready for a relationship now....he's not. I'm not gonna wait around for a guy who can't even respect me in front of his own fucking friends. And to be honest....the Woman jokes were getting on my nerves. I love him to death as a friend but i need some time away from him...besides...I'm tired of being teased. At least my last play thing put out. I was more then willing to let Dan have what he wanted but I guess I wasn't good enough....Fuck...there I go again. DAMNIT! So insecure....
Um...good news...Lizzie-Lizz convinced me that i am ready for a relationship and introduced me to a wonderful guy named Derek. He's sweet, polite, caring, (The family already loves him!) Doesn't care about the looks i have right now...I don't think (???), AND He's really really cute! Hell who the fuck am i kidding! He's Hott as hell! I met him last night. It came kind of unexpectedly when he asked me out, then Lizz calmed me down cuz she sensed I was having a slight panic attack with the suddeness of it all and convinced me that Derek wouln't hurt me, that he was a good guy. I mean even Lizz said that if she already weren't tossed over Ratt she'd have already asked him out. That has to say something. Lizz doesn't rush into things...ever. but yeah, I'm as Happy-go-fuckin-lucky as a japanese school girl right now. We talked for an hour tonight after i got off work. Just Weee!
My scheduele at the carwash got bumped up to three days a week. Now if I could just find a jomp part night shift or something some where. I don't know. Anyways. I think I'll go now. See ya'll later!
MiNX
But the boy. He became my pet human....and my play thing. But either way....Things turned out I'm ready for a relationship now....he's not. I'm not gonna wait around for a guy who can't even respect me in front of his own fucking friends. And to be honest....the Woman jokes were getting on my nerves. I love him to death as a friend but i need some time away from him...besides...I'm tired of being teased. At least my last play thing put out. I was more then willing to let Dan have what he wanted but I guess I wasn't good enough....Fuck...there I go again. DAMNIT! So insecure....
Um...good news...Lizzie-Lizz convinced me that i am ready for a relationship and introduced me to a wonderful guy named Derek. He's sweet, polite, caring, (The family already loves him!) Doesn't care about the looks i have right now...I don't think (???), AND He's really really cute! Hell who the fuck am i kidding! He's Hott as hell! I met him last night. It came kind of unexpectedly when he asked me out, then Lizz calmed me down cuz she sensed I was having a slight panic attack with the suddeness of it all and convinced me that Derek wouln't hurt me, that he was a good guy. I mean even Lizz said that if she already weren't tossed over Ratt she'd have already asked him out. That has to say something. Lizz doesn't rush into things...ever. but yeah, I'm as Happy-go-fuckin-lucky as a japanese school girl right now. We talked for an hour tonight after i got off work. Just Weee!
My scheduele at the carwash got bumped up to three days a week. Now if I could just find a jomp part night shift or something some where. I don't know. Anyways. I think I'll go now. See ya'll later!
MiNX