Fishnets and a digital camera
I woke up this morning with an excruciating sense of dread. I thought to myself, this is my life. It's not going to change. It's just all spiraling down and I can't stop it. I had a really hard time getting out of bed...I wanted to get up early so I could finish my music theory homework that I neglected from the night before....but I thought, what's the point? Everything is so far destroyed anyway it doesn't matter. And I didn't study for the quiz in sight singing. So I curled up with my beautiful comforter and wrote a poem in my head, thinking about how I wanted to cry but I tried and I was physically incapable.
"i saw daisies at your feet. then i expected roses. instead you gave me a wilted carnation in a rusty can."
But I had to turn off the alarm. So I got up, did my work, and went to my voice lesson.
My hair is unusually red today. Maybe I have MOOD HAIR.
What a change! When I was singing I went into a different world and the world that I truly exist in became a far away cloud that I had nothing to do with. The ring of the piano enveloped me and I focused on the downward motion of my diaphragm, timed perfectly with commas and rests to breathe the exact volume necessary to support the aria. My professor was so cheery and complimented me and it truly was uplifting for the brief 1/2 hour I was there in that office, staring at notes and lines and Italian that had nothing to do with the reality of who I am sometimes...the person I'm forced to wake up to once in a while that scares me.
But now everything is ok. After I saw and talked to great friends that I trust and love and ate some good fruit, drank some V8, munched on some almonds, and sighed with relief that my music theory class was over and that I had aced the sight singing quiz without studying at all I felt much better. Life truly is good. I'm very thankful for all these amazing experiences I'm getting to have...it's just that sometimes the little things get to me...but in retrospect I realize they don't really matter.
I can't WAIT for the Vagina Monologues tomorrow!!!!
Ok time for Motorcyle Diaries...
PS: cherrydilemma guess who was at the party I went to last night.....check out the pics to find out!!!
me and epilepticemu gettin ready to leave...check out the unicorns on his shirt
mollyboy !!! dancing!!!
fun people hangin out
veggieramen and oneragingstar
me and carla
iammaggieryan dressed for the occasion gettin everybody to dance
OO spicy...
Why am I such a narcissist?
Look at their beautiful hair!
This is Nate from my shamanism class last semester. I brought him but he ended up acting like a jerk and then he passed out on the carpet.
The ever-so-lovely humalong who is beautiful even when she's sick :-P
Look! A vagina shirt!
He had everyone who was underage sign his shirt ...how creative.
epilepticemu and the cute boy he brought :) GREEN ribbons = single
This guy was really nice. He reminded me of this guy I used to hang out with back in Jackson.
Francesco the TA from my bioethics honors class!!!!
Overall it was a great night. A little drama here and there, but awesomely fun! Spin the bottle, maps of places to make out, ribbons, condoms, a keg running out really fast, Twister, many creative outfits, and eating at Theio's with riverriot, dmitch, and mollyboy . I'm sad that I didn't make out with more people, because, after all that was the object of the party. I would have taken MANY more pictures but I dropped my camera and it stopped taking pictures. GRRR. I'm going to have to go get it fixed. I hope it can be fixed!!!