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i had sort of a plan this summer. i decided that in order to motivate myself to actually do well in school instead of starting off well and then for whatever reason, not, i needed to get completely and totally sick of the working world.
and i think i've succeeded.
i've been trying to move up in the world of borders. i work hard, i'm dedicated, why the hell not? but everytime, i've been shot down.
and after this last time, i realized that no matter how hard i work i will never get what i want from borders. ever.
i pulled three overnight shifts in a row without complaint, thinking that if i just did it, all the better my chances of being recognized.
pfft. wrong.
i've really busted my ass in there. it was only supposed to be a thing between classes, a hobby.
it has totally consumed my life. and i didn't mean for it to.
breht says that i should sit down and just vent to them. all the frustrations and all of the dashed hopes and false promises. but i don't know what that would accomplish except making me seem whiney.
i already have this unshakable fear that everyone there just sees me as a little kid.
i don't know. there's no real point to this entry. i don't know what to do about it.
who do you talk to when your boss, your boss's boss and your boss's boss's boss is the problem?