Uh oh, the big ONE NINE
Thats right ladies and gentleman, I am officially nineteen years of age. And I am not intoxicated, there is something clearly wrong with this situation. So I guess the only thing left to do is sum up my nineteenth birthday experience eh? Well, lets see, I got some presents from people who made me realise that someone actually does care about me which did make me feel good in a way. However I guess over the years since highschool I have realised that and the only thing I've really wanted was that certain someone to give me that feeling I desire most, that specific caring. I had that for a while and I am entirely grateful but it does suck when its gone and your left with yourself again and your own thoughts and evaluations. Well whatever, no rant on that subject for tonight. I thank everyone who gave me a happy birthday, especially those who reminded me they still remember me and still think about me on some level, it made me feel good to see all of those facebook happy birthdays.
Moving on my birthday was also spent with alot of family stress. My immediate family is having some rough times because of some stuff and theres alot of tension and stress there but I hope the holidays can fix some of that. The only thing that might keep that from happening is my grandfather being sick. In fact hes not just sick, but dying fast. Hes nearing the days left mark if he hasn't already hit it and I'm just waiting for the phone call to tell me its happened and then I have to worry about going home to a wake and then what do I do about finals? Theres alot on my mind but whatever, I will get over most of it rather quickly.
What more is left to rant about? Nothing really I guess, so I'm going to just write my thoughts. The decemberists rock hard, I'm rocking out to some of their stuff right now and just chilling out wishing I was drunk. The goonies is on so thats pretty sweet I guess. Other than that I'm not looking foward to finals and this week, but I am looking foward to the semesters close in a way. Though at home I feel weird. I don't go out really, I don't have anywhere to go, noone to meet like I do here at college. At home I have my computer and my clans, my video games, and the fragile relationship with my siblings and parents thats deteriorating. I don't know what to do anymore...
Moving on my birthday was also spent with alot of family stress. My immediate family is having some rough times because of some stuff and theres alot of tension and stress there but I hope the holidays can fix some of that. The only thing that might keep that from happening is my grandfather being sick. In fact hes not just sick, but dying fast. Hes nearing the days left mark if he hasn't already hit it and I'm just waiting for the phone call to tell me its happened and then I have to worry about going home to a wake and then what do I do about finals? Theres alot on my mind but whatever, I will get over most of it rather quickly.
What more is left to rant about? Nothing really I guess, so I'm going to just write my thoughts. The decemberists rock hard, I'm rocking out to some of their stuff right now and just chilling out wishing I was drunk. The goonies is on so thats pretty sweet I guess. Other than that I'm not looking foward to finals and this week, but I am looking foward to the semesters close in a way. Though at home I feel weird. I don't go out really, I don't have anywhere to go, noone to meet like I do here at college. At home I have my computer and my clans, my video games, and the fragile relationship with my siblings and parents thats deteriorating. I don't know what to do anymore...