Life, is for living...
I have been very out of it recently. And i know it's been 6 weeks since my last post and I've had times where I've wanted to write but just can't work past the ennui. So I'm finally doing it tonight. I apologize in advance if I ramble but I'm still sorta disjointed.
I've been out of sorts.. the energy in the house has been weird and disconbomulated and off to all corners of the world.. My own has been very lacking. I feel afloat not sure what I want or what i'm looking for. I've been very tight and terse with Nick and I'm not sure where it's coming from. We've lived with each other for a year now and been together almost two. He is everything i need. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him as much as I don't always show it.. I've been lethargic and not very active.. I feel useless sometimes.. Like i know I'm not doing what I should be. I feel like I could be doing something better than what i do currently work wise. i know i should be in school. and gods know I should propably have a much better body than this. Not sure where all this comes from.. I need to ground. I need to center (Gods the voices of my pagan teachers are coming back to me) I just want/need to move on... Wish I knew how.. I think I'll talk more later my head is pounding.. Night..
I've been out of sorts.. the energy in the house has been weird and disconbomulated and off to all corners of the world.. My own has been very lacking. I feel afloat not sure what I want or what i'm looking for. I've been very tight and terse with Nick and I'm not sure where it's coming from. We've lived with each other for a year now and been together almost two. He is everything i need. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him as much as I don't always show it.. I've been lethargic and not very active.. I feel useless sometimes.. Like i know I'm not doing what I should be. I feel like I could be doing something better than what i do currently work wise. i know i should be in school. and gods know I should propably have a much better body than this. Not sure where all this comes from.. I need to ground. I need to center (Gods the voices of my pagan teachers are coming back to me) I just want/need to move on... Wish I knew how.. I think I'll talk more later my head is pounding.. Night..