Life...
I was out and about not too long ago with some great people, and a song played...This song is my favorite song, but it's very sad. It makes thoughts happen that I've not readied myself to handle, and it makes my heart break. I turned to see that it did the same to someone else that I care very much about. It was nice to know that I was not alone, but it made me very sad to see the heartbreak.
So this portion of my update goes to that person. I care about you very much, and I want you to know you are never alone.
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Speaking of music, Adam played a song for me..."Mad World" by Gary Jules. It's from Donnie Darko...Wow..it's very powerful. I put it on my space if anyone wants to hear it. It makes me think a lot. It makes me very sad at the same time. It makes me think about all the people who are not as lucky as me, or it makes me think about the days when I get down and I wonder "why." Or when I'm walking down the hallway wondering about existence and life and pain and love. All these things at the same time go through my head when I hear that song. It's very powerful.
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Life's not been too hard on me I guess. I've been rethinking some personal choices I've made. I think there are things I could do better, and things I've been too hard on others about, including people that I love. We've had Madrigal practices this week, which I'm kind of excited about, but like Novalee says in "where the heart is" I only feel like I'm playing grown up. It's like I'm still 12, but I'm playing 18. I guess it just doesn't seem real. I hate to see that the friends I used to have never talk to me anymore. Everything is different now. Some of it I like and am ok with. I'm happy being in love and having Adam to be with, but I'm not happy that life is so chaotic in high school that friends lose track of each other. So I guess I have to take the bad with the good. When it's good, it's great, when it's bad, it's terrible. What can you do?
I'm not sure any of that made sense, or that anyone will even read it for that matter. But it's just things I've had on my mind. And I haven't updated for a while, but, like I said, it's not like anyone will read it anyway.
Love and Blessings For Always,
Sparkky
So this portion of my update goes to that person. I care about you very much, and I want you to know you are never alone.
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Speaking of music, Adam played a song for me..."Mad World" by Gary Jules. It's from Donnie Darko...Wow..it's very powerful. I put it on my space if anyone wants to hear it. It makes me think a lot. It makes me very sad at the same time. It makes me think about all the people who are not as lucky as me, or it makes me think about the days when I get down and I wonder "why." Or when I'm walking down the hallway wondering about existence and life and pain and love. All these things at the same time go through my head when I hear that song. It's very powerful.
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Life's not been too hard on me I guess. I've been rethinking some personal choices I've made. I think there are things I could do better, and things I've been too hard on others about, including people that I love. We've had Madrigal practices this week, which I'm kind of excited about, but like Novalee says in "where the heart is" I only feel like I'm playing grown up. It's like I'm still 12, but I'm playing 18. I guess it just doesn't seem real. I hate to see that the friends I used to have never talk to me anymore. Everything is different now. Some of it I like and am ok with. I'm happy being in love and having Adam to be with, but I'm not happy that life is so chaotic in high school that friends lose track of each other. So I guess I have to take the bad with the good. When it's good, it's great, when it's bad, it's terrible. What can you do?
I'm not sure any of that made sense, or that anyone will even read it for that matter. But it's just things I've had on my mind. And I haven't updated for a while, but, like I said, it's not like anyone will read it anyway.
Love and Blessings For Always,
Sparkky