does every woman feel this way in the last couple weeks?
I'm feeling like this is never gonna end. Not necessarily the feeling that I want it to end (though I've had my share of those moments. between being tired of hurting and being uncomfortable all the time, and the desire to hold my baby, I'm fairly ready for this whole thing to wrap itself up), but more feeling that it's not going to. I've had a total of three contractions, and I haven't had a single one in over a week. It just doesn't feel like anything is moving along. The baby's head down, but hasn't dropped.
I guess the other part of it is that I've read all the stuff on labor and delivery, talked to my doctor about it, made a list of my preferences so the hospital staff will know what I want when it's time, done all that stuff, even watched a video of a classic vaginal birth (and cried). I've even visualized what it's going to be like, gone over a million scenarios in my head, and yet it doesn't seem to have sunk in that that's actually going to be happening to ME anytime soon. I've been pregnant for so long, it's just become the norm. It doesn't seem like something that's just going to end all the sudden.
Been having dreams about the baby. About the first time I hold him/her. It's like I can see the baby's little face, exactly what they're gonna look like, but when I wake up, I can't remember exactly. Also been having really wierd dreams, like dreams about trying to feed the baby in the shower and it keeps slipping out of my hands, but it falls really slow and I just bend down and catch it, and both of us are smiling and laughing the whole time. And been dreaming about the most normal things, like waking up in the middle of the night to take care of the baby, or Mia holding the baby, or giving the baby it's first bath. It's like those dreams where you dream about waking up and getting ready in the morning, and then as you're heading out the door, you hear your alarm going off and you realize you were asleep the whole time and just dreamed your morning routine. Only I've never had a baby. It's not a routine my subconcious is just replaying in my head. But it feels like it. It feels like the most natural thing in the world.
Anyway, I don't think I'm going to be one of those women who tries all sorts of things to get myself to go into labor. It'll happen when it happens. I'll only hurry it along if it's been more than two weeks and there's not enough placenta left to support the baby anymore. I'm ready, but content to wait.
anyway, love.
I guess the other part of it is that I've read all the stuff on labor and delivery, talked to my doctor about it, made a list of my preferences so the hospital staff will know what I want when it's time, done all that stuff, even watched a video of a classic vaginal birth (and cried). I've even visualized what it's going to be like, gone over a million scenarios in my head, and yet it doesn't seem to have sunk in that that's actually going to be happening to ME anytime soon. I've been pregnant for so long, it's just become the norm. It doesn't seem like something that's just going to end all the sudden.
Been having dreams about the baby. About the first time I hold him/her. It's like I can see the baby's little face, exactly what they're gonna look like, but when I wake up, I can't remember exactly. Also been having really wierd dreams, like dreams about trying to feed the baby in the shower and it keeps slipping out of my hands, but it falls really slow and I just bend down and catch it, and both of us are smiling and laughing the whole time. And been dreaming about the most normal things, like waking up in the middle of the night to take care of the baby, or Mia holding the baby, or giving the baby it's first bath. It's like those dreams where you dream about waking up and getting ready in the morning, and then as you're heading out the door, you hear your alarm going off and you realize you were asleep the whole time and just dreamed your morning routine. Only I've never had a baby. It's not a routine my subconcious is just replaying in my head. But it feels like it. It feels like the most natural thing in the world.
Anyway, I don't think I'm going to be one of those women who tries all sorts of things to get myself to go into labor. It'll happen when it happens. I'll only hurry it along if it's been more than two weeks and there's not enough placenta left to support the baby anymore. I'm ready, but content to wait.
anyway, love.