procrastination begins now!
So today is my big "job hunting" day and I have already foung 12 different "pressing" tasks to replace this huge pain in the ass that awaits me. So it goes. I am trying to learn how to be okay with making social blunders and, in general, just being myself around new people that I would like to become friends with. Last night I went out to eat with some people from Mosaic and I was so nervous! I feel like I stumble through those situation miserablly, but, hey, isn't half of life just showing up for it? (I am trying to calm my social anxieties, unsuccessfully). I always want to be *polished* but that concern keeps me from trying out so many different things, it's insane!
Happy things this weekend:
* The farmer at Animal Farm (at the Austin Farmer's Market) gave Ian and I a whole bunch of squash on the sly. It made me feel special and happy inside. We didn't even ask for this special treatment :)
* Conrad seemed sincerely happy to see me Sunday night, after a day of gallavanting around our neighborhood, asserting his new freedom as an outdoor/indoor cat.
* Hanging out with Alexander and realizing that my life is so much bigger than myself and my selfish ponderings, etc. Thank God.
* Seeing Miss Katy again. We need to go on a cheesy "double date"!
* Not having to go back to Sweetish HELL! I hope I never have to go back there to work!
Happy things this weekend:
* The farmer at Animal Farm (at the Austin Farmer's Market) gave Ian and I a whole bunch of squash on the sly. It made me feel special and happy inside. We didn't even ask for this special treatment :)
* Conrad seemed sincerely happy to see me Sunday night, after a day of gallavanting around our neighborhood, asserting his new freedom as an outdoor/indoor cat.
* Hanging out with Alexander and realizing that my life is so much bigger than myself and my selfish ponderings, etc. Thank God.
* Seeing Miss Katy again. We need to go on a cheesy "double date"!
* Not having to go back to Sweetish HELL! I hope I never have to go back there to work!