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friday was awful at school. i nearly cried several times and cut on two separate occasions in the girls room. i'm worried about my grade in latin. if i get something higher than an 80 i'll be so excited. but i don't think i'll make honor roll this quarter. ugh.
tennis was fun. it was so cold, and i was so upset during my singles match. i lost miserably, 1-8, and played terribly. i could not hit a groundstroke and i couldn't get my feet to move fast enough.it just really sucked. my head was not in the game, i was so out of it. but doubles was a lot better. chrissy and i won, go us! it was a looong match though, 8-6. i was so worried that we'd have to go to a tiebreaker which is just a major pain in the ass.
on the bus ride home we all sat together and talked about everything and anything. :) it was so great. and then i got my phone and found out that james had called me...-grins- so naturally we all squeal and get really excited :p girls get so silly over boys. i called him back and we made plans to go out to dinner friday night :D and it was amazing.
he made reservations for 9:30 and over our italian dinner he told me that i have the most beautiful eyes he's ever seen. :) he was like "i know this is going to sound corny, but it's true..." after dinner he took me down a thousand different back roads until we got to this small hill in/around ashland. we hiked up in the dark holding hands and when we got to the top we sat on a bench and looked up at the stars. the night was so clear, there were millions and millions of beautiful sparkling stars, he told me that he'd always wanted to bring someone special up there, and then he kissed me...
it was so romantic...it was so perfect.
i can't even believe how lucky i am. we spent all of today together because of this stupid NHS basketball thing. i drove down to bow highschool with him, just the two of us in his car. we talked and talked about everything. we never seemed to run out of things to talk about, it was amazing. :)
part of me worries that it's all too good to be true. i'm worried that when he finds out about the depth of my depression and my cutting and the extent of my scars, that he'll want nothing to do with me...and that scares me so much. because i've fallen for him so hard.
tennis was fun. it was so cold, and i was so upset during my singles match. i lost miserably, 1-8, and played terribly. i could not hit a groundstroke and i couldn't get my feet to move fast enough.it just really sucked. my head was not in the game, i was so out of it. but doubles was a lot better. chrissy and i won, go us! it was a looong match though, 8-6. i was so worried that we'd have to go to a tiebreaker which is just a major pain in the ass.
on the bus ride home we all sat together and talked about everything and anything. :) it was so great. and then i got my phone and found out that james had called me...-grins- so naturally we all squeal and get really excited :p girls get so silly over boys. i called him back and we made plans to go out to dinner friday night :D and it was amazing.
he made reservations for 9:30 and over our italian dinner he told me that i have the most beautiful eyes he's ever seen. :) he was like "i know this is going to sound corny, but it's true..." after dinner he took me down a thousand different back roads until we got to this small hill in/around ashland. we hiked up in the dark holding hands and when we got to the top we sat on a bench and looked up at the stars. the night was so clear, there were millions and millions of beautiful sparkling stars, he told me that he'd always wanted to bring someone special up there, and then he kissed me...
it was so romantic...it was so perfect.
i can't even believe how lucky i am. we spent all of today together because of this stupid NHS basketball thing. i drove down to bow highschool with him, just the two of us in his car. we talked and talked about everything. we never seemed to run out of things to talk about, it was amazing. :)
part of me worries that it's all too good to be true. i'm worried that when he finds out about the depth of my depression and my cutting and the extent of my scars, that he'll want nothing to do with me...and that scares me so much. because i've fallen for him so hard.