Im Smiling.
I had a GREAT weekend.I went on a road trip =)
I went to worster to party with the asian and sam. That was pretty good met some new people, but still a little akward. worster is a crazy place thats for sure.
Then on Saterday i drove up the Mass Pike to Monson to see Leanne. One of my real friends who i have been tight with since she was in 6th grade. Kate Leanne and I all grew up together pretty much. Yes we have our rough times but we always get through them and have stuck by eachother through it all. I got to see Leannes beautiful son Trevor and her sisters son Cohen. SO cute. i could never have kids. i dont know how they both do it. i am proud of Leanne. She is doing so good for herself. It was just what i needed to see her and be reminded there are other people out there who care about me as much as i do them. Though we are miles apart she is always in my heart <3 and my thoughts. As i hope i am in hers.
She gave me a good piece of advice today
While i was gone someone left me a message saying:
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."
And Leanne said :
"The weak break peoples hearts and fuck over their friends. The strong move on and get rid of those who hurt them."
and She is right. I am trying to be a stronger person. and In the past Week i have been feeling alot better. I surround myself with the people who I care about and pour my heart out to them and they are there for me and Care about me. I have managed to SMILE alot lately and i havnt cried since Friday. and even my counsoler told me that in the short time we have been talking she thinks that i am making progress and reaching out in all the right ways. And on Friday she told me that i should be proud of myself.
and in all honesty i am. TODAY is the best i have felt in over 4 months.
it is going to continue up.
<3 Kip*