Crazyness..
Ok so wow alot has gone on since i last updated. My past week has been fun and horrible at the same time. All i did was work or spend time with alan witch is alawys nice. I got another tattoo wednesday then i spent the whole day with alan it was nice. Last nite was the worst nite ever. Me alan and bobby decicded to drink yager witch i ended up drinkin just about the whole 5th myslef. So some crap happend and i got sad and started cryin and drank alot more then needed and got wasted off my ass. I couldn't walk or anything i dont really remeber and i guess i was making out with cailtyn and bobby not good lol. So then we go to leave and bobby and cailtyn break up but me and alan are fine. Then i come home and he ims me sayin he just wants to be single. Of course i lost it, i spent the whole nite cryin i didnt sleep at all. Then me and caitlyn hung out and talk like all day today. We went hiking witch is always fun. We were walking and all of a sudden squeek it sounds like a gate. Caitlyn turns to me "ohh iam not dealing with this today" so she turns and just books it and started running the pac man run lol so then i start running after her like somthing was going to get us shes like way ahead of me then i stop and just bust out laughing and iam like cailtyn stop shes like huh ohhh and then we just laugh for like 20 mins about it. Then were are lik lost and shes getting so mad and bobby and everything going on she pulls a tree out of the ground i was like what the hell super woman so i got made and was trying to pull a tree out to and i couldn't do it and i got mad. So then she goes pull this twig out of the ground and i couldn't so i just gave up. Then we went home and talked to mom and told her about out adventure and by mom i mean caitlyns mom lol. Then we went and picked up Britti cuz she was aloud out. Then alan called me and wanted me to go to his house so we could talk about things and i guess it made me feel better that i know whats going on now. But i still dont understand.As soon as i walked in the door he just huged me and wouldnt let go i couldnt even talk i just cryed, and eventually i setted down and we talked. He still wants to see me and be friends while hes still here. In a month hes moving to clarkston and i probaly wont see him again..:/ with is very upsetting . I guess hes gotta do what hes gotta do. I still love him and its going to take me a while to get over this. I guess i just gotta make the best of things while i have time and hes still here...I am so pissed at toys r us iam going about to quite and i told my mom and shes like w/e so idk i have to talk to my boss at A&W and if i can get more hrs there toys r us is gone iam not dealing with there shit anymore its stupid. So iam back to a single life. Its going to be really hard cuz i dont want to be with anyone else and i miss him already its going to take time i guess. Its going to be a long time before i let anyone in like i let him in..But thats life for you. Even tho iam hurting right now i wouldnt take a second with him back he was worth it and i would do it again. At least i was happy for a little while. Well i guess thats it i really need to update more....<33