silence is... okay
Well... havn't been in here for a few, what, weeks? Well, not with anything of real value or merit. ::shrugs:: Whatever.
Some random stuff to update about.
I don't even know where I left off... hmm... I think it may have been about puppies. So... there were 12... all are adorable. No browns except for one...he's a cutie. Two fluffies (including my runterz and the big fluffy momma lol). Some whites w/ black spots (like Lyra) and the rest are all black... except for Roddy who's a nice mix of black brown and beige! :) Gis and Buddy took Roddy... his name is Prince Roddy of Rottingham because he kinda looks like a rutweiler (sp?!). I'm still in love with the Runterz and am slowly trying to convince mom to let me keep her... she's so tiny! I've already got a name for her... Belladona Zaray. Yup yup. I was thinking momma can call her Bella... 'cause she always complains about not being able to pronounce the names I give to pets... lol. I wanted a name with "bell" in it 'cause Lea and I were saying she's so small (and might not get any bigger) so i'll end up putting a bell on her to hear where she is! ^_^
Lets see... what else... have kind of been talking to Jd off and on for the last couple of weeks. Actually spent most of this last weekend in SA but didn't even get to see him. It was 87 Weekend being hosted by Omega Delta Phi and KDChi... there was a party at this ghetto ass club: Club Rain... and I told Jd about it and invited him... but he didn't show. So, he texts me the next day apologizing, saying that he had to work. And then we kinda talked dirty all afternoon... lol. Wierd, I know. Then! Nens comes in, saying they're going back to SA to see Kandice (hers and Tricia's big)... so of course I go and tell Jd about it. We make plans to meet up with him and Rolie, but those get smashed as the Bigs (Celix was there too) complain about wanting to drink at some bar... so we don't get to see them. :( I felt bad. And Jd called me tonight... wanted to talk dirty some more... but Rox was in the room and I was giving her some time to get some headphones and music going... which only ended in me cockblocking myself and getting nothing except for Jd saying he had to go... now want to send him sexy pics of self to make up for it... and see if he calls back soon... lol. I'm dirty! lol.
In some more dispairing news... I'm not doing so well with school. I havn't been to class in going on 4 weeks... or work. And that's 'cause I fucking LOVED my job... but the meds keep me up at night (thus me doing this now) and I can only really sleep during the day... so... i've made up my mind. I'm going to see if I can drop all of my classes with Ws and go home early. I mean, i'm not accomplishing anything right now. i'm not in a very good mental state... and I think i just need some time to think things through... figure things out... fix myself... and then i'll come back. i've really been thinking about it, and as much as i don't like being home for very long... it's the best thing for me to do. i told harry and he supports me. i told alex tonight and she supports me too. the only one who really knew was rox.... only 'cause she kinda dragged it out of me and i cried and told her what was wrong. pip, don't worry too much. and don't tell anyone, please. this is something i want to keep hush hush until i get it all squared away and settled. but i'll explain it to you if you want. just call me. love you! :-*
but yeah... that's basically what's been up lately. it's been a hard decision for me to make... but i think it's really what i want to do. i just have to talk to my mom about it. because i know she KNOWS something is wrong... she always does. i just have to explain to her that i made a mistake and it wasn't my time to come back... i'll stay home for a semester... maybe a year, i'm not sure yet. and then transfer back. i just need time to figure myself out and let the meds settle right. because all of this is putting a lot of mental strain on me... and physical strain as well. i'm a fucking insomniac who can't sleep except for during the day... and i really hate it.
anyways.... i'm gonna go smoke a cig and then come back and prolly read sorceror's stone... 'cause i want to get through all the books before dh comes out.
cya'll
Some random stuff to update about.
I don't even know where I left off... hmm... I think it may have been about puppies. So... there were 12... all are adorable. No browns except for one...he's a cutie. Two fluffies (including my runterz and the big fluffy momma lol). Some whites w/ black spots (like Lyra) and the rest are all black... except for Roddy who's a nice mix of black brown and beige! :) Gis and Buddy took Roddy... his name is Prince Roddy of Rottingham because he kinda looks like a rutweiler (sp?!). I'm still in love with the Runterz and am slowly trying to convince mom to let me keep her... she's so tiny! I've already got a name for her... Belladona Zaray. Yup yup. I was thinking momma can call her Bella... 'cause she always complains about not being able to pronounce the names I give to pets... lol. I wanted a name with "bell" in it 'cause Lea and I were saying she's so small (and might not get any bigger) so i'll end up putting a bell on her to hear where she is! ^_^
Lets see... what else... have kind of been talking to Jd off and on for the last couple of weeks. Actually spent most of this last weekend in SA but didn't even get to see him. It was 87 Weekend being hosted by Omega Delta Phi and KDChi... there was a party at this ghetto ass club: Club Rain... and I told Jd about it and invited him... but he didn't show. So, he texts me the next day apologizing, saying that he had to work. And then we kinda talked dirty all afternoon... lol. Wierd, I know. Then! Nens comes in, saying they're going back to SA to see Kandice (hers and Tricia's big)... so of course I go and tell Jd about it. We make plans to meet up with him and Rolie, but those get smashed as the Bigs (Celix was there too) complain about wanting to drink at some bar... so we don't get to see them. :( I felt bad. And Jd called me tonight... wanted to talk dirty some more... but Rox was in the room and I was giving her some time to get some headphones and music going... which only ended in me cockblocking myself and getting nothing except for Jd saying he had to go... now want to send him sexy pics of self to make up for it... and see if he calls back soon... lol. I'm dirty! lol.
In some more dispairing news... I'm not doing so well with school. I havn't been to class in going on 4 weeks... or work. And that's 'cause I fucking LOVED my job... but the meds keep me up at night (thus me doing this now) and I can only really sleep during the day... so... i've made up my mind. I'm going to see if I can drop all of my classes with Ws and go home early. I mean, i'm not accomplishing anything right now. i'm not in a very good mental state... and I think i just need some time to think things through... figure things out... fix myself... and then i'll come back. i've really been thinking about it, and as much as i don't like being home for very long... it's the best thing for me to do. i told harry and he supports me. i told alex tonight and she supports me too. the only one who really knew was rox.... only 'cause she kinda dragged it out of me and i cried and told her what was wrong. pip, don't worry too much. and don't tell anyone, please. this is something i want to keep hush hush until i get it all squared away and settled. but i'll explain it to you if you want. just call me. love you! :-*
but yeah... that's basically what's been up lately. it's been a hard decision for me to make... but i think it's really what i want to do. i just have to talk to my mom about it. because i know she KNOWS something is wrong... she always does. i just have to explain to her that i made a mistake and it wasn't my time to come back... i'll stay home for a semester... maybe a year, i'm not sure yet. and then transfer back. i just need time to figure myself out and let the meds settle right. because all of this is putting a lot of mental strain on me... and physical strain as well. i'm a fucking insomniac who can't sleep except for during the day... and i really hate it.
anyways.... i'm gonna go smoke a cig and then come back and prolly read sorceror's stone... 'cause i want to get through all the books before dh comes out.
cya'll