with every breath i wish your body would be broken again
just when you think to yourself, hey life might get a little easier, and a little better, you get into fight with one of your best friends (wayne) well, actually it was more of krystin fighting for me , but still, then you know i go to the fair jeff and kody are there because as i told krystin they are the kinda people that go everyday because they have nothing to do, and seth was there with his boyfriend, hes sooo adorable and sweet and dana was there too , i told him to met ashley there on sunday ..but i didnt remember where sooo..thats alright tho, and krystin was all i want to find bridger but i dont know if hes here and i felt bad when we did find out he was there and the fact that he had another gil there but im not going to start on that one,soo all in all the fair was fun, hung around with kody, jeff, krystin, alison, bobby,jenn, bridger and mark for a little bit...holy shit i saw tim there....tim from..the camping party tim..ohh boy i didnt talk to him but ..yikes!soo yea krystin gave jeff a ride home but i had to sit in the front sit..and he had the back..but w/e im going to the movies tonight with him and katie and priscilla and kody and ..people. soo yea krystin was gonna sleep over and such but her dad was like no so she brought me home and i made her promise not to hurt herself , but then when i walked it , just when i thought whoa i had a really great night my dad is like "stef come here" "what?" "your uncle todd died today he had a heartattack " i just fell, collapsed on the floor, i mean just when i thought i had escaped death, when i was finally thinking about something other then death ,it happens but its closer to me soo it feels 100x worse, i really need a hug now, like more then anything right now i wish wayne was here, he would tell me that it was all right and he would give me a hug, but hes not here, and im afraid that we wont ever be the same, and that hurts. okay enough rambling i should really call katie soo good night ..errr..good afternoon