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you know what's awesome... when you tell your boyfriend he treats you bad and he stops for maybe a couple of hours then starts up again. i've been in a continuous badmood, rooted in my boyfriend's best friend basically hinting that he's been cheating then saying he hasnt, i personally dont think he has because him and i have had this conversation many times and i dont think there's a girl stupid enough out there to eat off of my plate, although i know a few sluts that would just to piss me off... i'm pmsing realllllll bad so that's always good. i have to work tomorrow and i know i'll be in a bad mood then, thumbs down. wanted to have a romantic night with my boyfriend tonight and last night, last night ended with clayton and this drunk guy that kept hitting on me getting in a fight, and i didnt even see clayton today because, well i dont really know. i really just want to be happy again, like i was in the beginning of the relationship when it was just fun and all laughs and smiles i miss that more than anything. and everyone's like oh if you're not happy, dump him. well duhhhh if it were that easy i would, idk even his best friend thinks i should dump him but i can't, i fell for the kid like it was my job and when we do breakup, like we have many times ... i'll be a wreck no matter what. this kid has a part of my heart now and he always will.. even ten years from now, by then i'll probably be married and maybe have kids but even then i'll still think back to this period of time when i was with him, and even though we've gone through our ups .. and we've defiently have had plenty of downs..we've made it through so far, and overall i'm content with our relationship. do i wish things were different? of course i do, everyone does. but people are who they are, there's nothing anyone else can do about it. idk i just really would like to talk to him but he wont pick up his cell phone... blahh whatever. night<3