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wow.
school starts soon.
that sucks.
alot.
i didnt do much this summer.
which SUCKS.
i didnt hang out with natalie which i REALLY wanted to do and actually thought i might stop being a retard longer enough to make plans.
so screw me.
i hung out with like negative ANYONE from school.
not even kelsey.
who is awesome.
and like i saw amanda once.
im stupid.
i didnt get to go canoeing.
and i didnt use my six flags pass thingy which was a waste of money.
i still havent gotten my haircut.
i dont do anything.
i never do.
it makes me feel like really lazy.
but at the same time, i dont FEEL lazy.
like mentally, i feel like i could go to sleep for about 3 days.
its not like i dont get enough sleep type thing,
i just cant think right.
i worry way to much.
and you'd think worrying would be a semi-good thing....
but no.
its really not.
it messing alot of things up.
drinking really isnt the answer to make me feel good.
and thats the first step, is to realize that drinking doesnt help anything.its not like im an alcholic and i do it every weekend, its just that when i do it it makes me feel worse about it once its all over.
its just stupid.
im stupid.
this is stupid.
i read too much into everything.
i need to talk to him.
i miss him alot.
he could make me feel better about it.
i dont know how.
but he could.
he always could.
SCREW IT
school starts soon.
that sucks.
alot.
i didnt do much this summer.
which SUCKS.
i didnt hang out with natalie which i REALLY wanted to do and actually thought i might stop being a retard longer enough to make plans.
so screw me.
i hung out with like negative ANYONE from school.
not even kelsey.
who is awesome.
and like i saw amanda once.
im stupid.
i didnt get to go canoeing.
and i didnt use my six flags pass thingy which was a waste of money.
i still havent gotten my haircut.
i dont do anything.
i never do.
it makes me feel like really lazy.
but at the same time, i dont FEEL lazy.
like mentally, i feel like i could go to sleep for about 3 days.
its not like i dont get enough sleep type thing,
i just cant think right.
i worry way to much.
and you'd think worrying would be a semi-good thing....
but no.
its really not.
it messing alot of things up.
drinking really isnt the answer to make me feel good.
and thats the first step, is to realize that drinking doesnt help anything.its not like im an alcholic and i do it every weekend, its just that when i do it it makes me feel worse about it once its all over.
its just stupid.
im stupid.
this is stupid.
i read too much into everything.
i need to talk to him.
i miss him alot.
he could make me feel better about it.
i dont know how.
but he could.
he always could.
SCREW IT