[005]
So. More people are here; one I sort of know. But he's not the same man, most likely from a different version of Tokyo than the one I'm from. We've talked, and most likely will again if only to compare notes of what differences exist between the world he's from and the world I remember. It hurts, somehow, that he's not my Ryuuzaki. Even if my Ryuuzaki isn't really "mine," per se. But still...
I don't know why, but I told this Ryuuzaki the truth. About the first Kira. About me, before. Not in detail--that can be saved for a later discussion--but what I haven't been able to tell my Ryuuzaki yet. I want to, I've wanted to... but I don't know how. I've thought of leaving Japan, but until Higuchi is convicted I can't. Not that it matters now, after all, and I was truthful with this Ryuuzaki.
The only concern I have over it is, what will become of my family in light of it? Father will be looked upon with suspicion, as I did it all while living under his roof. Mother and Sayu will be heartbroken... perhaps if I get the chance I'll ask my Ryuuzaki to keep my family out of the loop....
I suppose I should go to dinner, it's about that time. I've done fairly good avoiding my roommate (he's grumpy, to put it mildly) so I should skip out of here for a while in case he decides he needs someone to aggravate and finds me.
I don't know why, but I told this Ryuuzaki the truth. About the first Kira. About me, before. Not in detail--that can be saved for a later discussion--but what I haven't been able to tell my Ryuuzaki yet. I want to, I've wanted to... but I don't know how. I've thought of leaving Japan, but until Higuchi is convicted I can't. Not that it matters now, after all, and I was truthful with this Ryuuzaki.
The only concern I have over it is, what will become of my family in light of it? Father will be looked upon with suspicion, as I did it all while living under his roof. Mother and Sayu will be heartbroken... perhaps if I get the chance I'll ask my Ryuuzaki to keep my family out of the loop....
I suppose I should go to dinner, it's about that time. I've done fairly good avoiding my roommate (he's grumpy, to put it mildly) so I should skip out of here for a while in case he decides he needs someone to aggravate and finds me.