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Yeah.. deffinatly an emo moment right now.. and I have yet to actually put one in my LJ. Brian just came in and talked to me. He's very excited cus he found a new girl. He likes her alot, and she really likes him. They met a couple days ago, and she lives about an hour away. He was telling me all about her. and I can tell he likes her alot. I'm happy for him. Then he was talking about Ivy and how much he loved her and how much he still does, and how those feelings will never go away and how she will always be there and stuff. Then he was asking me about my relationships... I wanted to cry. He was just kinda laying on my floor looking at the walls, and tell me what kinda guy I need to find, and once I find someone like that, Never let him go! That deffinatly made me cry. I want someone like that. I want someone like Brian was to Ivy. He would do ANYTHING for her. ANYTHING. Brian was asking me what happend to Justin, and he was shocked to hear what he did. Then he asked how Greggy was and such. I told him and what he sed to me yesturday. No one really understands me right now.. I dont even understand me right now. I just wanna flip out and punch things. Which is very weird, cus I usually just cry once then get over it. But I think it's happend so many times, that it's deffinatly getting to my head. And now I'm going insane!!! WHAT THE FUCK!.. I need to yell that. Anyways.... then Brian gets on the fact of him going into war. I told him I was more proud then dissapointed or anything else. I dont want him to leave, but it's choice. Then he said that right now, our parents have enough money to just put one of us through college. And since me and him are soo close in age, if he went into college right now, I wouldnt.. So he choosed the Army. He told me he rather have me get a good education and shit. Holy eff. I love him so much. I'm gonna remember what he just said to me for the rest of my life! and I seriously mean that. He cares soo much about me, and he really does want the best for me. It sucks, cus he'll be gone in no time. I really hope we dont go to war with Korea! He told me if he goes to the Army and such, I'll be able to go to college after high school, and by the time he gets out of the army, he can go to any college he wants to for free, and by then there will be enough money for Brendan, and then Billy. I really dont kno how to feel right now. There are soo many emotions, I'm about to scream my lungs out!!
Brian-I love you so much. Your always looking out for me, and I'm glad that your not a snobby older brother that thinks he's better than me all the time. ^.^ I can vent to you about family and relationship problems, and you always give me such great advice. I kno that you would protect me from any guy that would hurt me, and thanks! I hate you so much for soo many different things, but I love you more. Not only cus your my brother, but cus I can always run to you when I have a problem. I love you so much, dont ever change.. well, you can change somethings. But not the most important things. :)
^He wanted a little message from me to him. So.. there it is. I love you! and I'm proud of what you're doing.<3
<3 to everyone else..
Brian-I love you so much. Your always looking out for me, and I'm glad that your not a snobby older brother that thinks he's better than me all the time. ^.^ I can vent to you about family and relationship problems, and you always give me such great advice. I kno that you would protect me from any guy that would hurt me, and thanks! I hate you so much for soo many different things, but I love you more. Not only cus your my brother, but cus I can always run to you when I have a problem. I love you so much, dont ever change.. well, you can change somethings. But not the most important things. :)
^He wanted a little message from me to him. So.. there it is. I love you! and I'm proud of what you're doing.<3
<3 to everyone else..