FUCK YOU TOO!!!
i was fine..no i was fucking HAPPY..till my phone rang..
at first i was glad andy had called me..so much has happened since we last spoke..
but all he did was give me a fucking guilt trip about cutting myself..then he's gotta be a dick about robert..then he has to go on about how fucking pretty this new chick (jordan) he wants to date..
not like i care about her and him..but its like he was trying to make me sad..
why cant he just be happy for me?
why cant he just be my friend..thats all i ask..
he's already practically ruined me to the point that i dont even want to love again..and i'm so scared about this relationship w/ robert because of him..fuck
i hate the way he twists my brain around itself then around his middle finger..
was it ever really worth it?
i didnt regret..that wa sthe thing..i had no regret..now..i regret how i let him use me..and i regret liking it..
he could do anything he wanted and still have me..and he knew it..
but i think things are changing..i'm getting stronger..i think i can fight him..
i wont let him ruin me any more..
i still care for him and i still want to be his friend..but thats it..
i'm happy w/ robert right now..he makes me smile and he makes me laugh..i wont let someone 1800 miles away ruin it..not this time..
at first i was glad andy had called me..so much has happened since we last spoke..
but all he did was give me a fucking guilt trip about cutting myself..then he's gotta be a dick about robert..then he has to go on about how fucking pretty this new chick (jordan) he wants to date..
not like i care about her and him..but its like he was trying to make me sad..
why cant he just be happy for me?
why cant he just be my friend..thats all i ask..
he's already practically ruined me to the point that i dont even want to love again..and i'm so scared about this relationship w/ robert because of him..fuck
i hate the way he twists my brain around itself then around his middle finger..
was it ever really worth it?
i didnt regret..that wa sthe thing..i had no regret..now..i regret how i let him use me..and i regret liking it..
he could do anything he wanted and still have me..and he knew it..
but i think things are changing..i'm getting stronger..i think i can fight him..
i wont let him ruin me any more..
i still care for him and i still want to be his friend..but thats it..
i'm happy w/ robert right now..he makes me smile and he makes me laugh..i wont let someone 1800 miles away ruin it..not this time..