just breathe
I want to run into a forest.. just as the dawn is rising.
I want to be barefoot. I want to run wild and feel myself breaking free. I want to run towards the trees. I want to feel free.And I want to breathe.
Breathe in.
I want to inhale the nature. And i want to know that everything is going to be alright.
And thats what I want.
I'm at Papis right now. The trip here was decent. Boring but decent.
I already feel a little better.
Maybe a moment to yourself is the key...
I hope so.
We went to Jones Beach. It was so lively even at like 10 pm.
I want to play with my friends.
Im going to plan a game day. With fun activities. and fun people.
Even not so fun people should be fun that day.
I love my mina. The bitch cracks me up and makes me happy.
and news bloopers make me happy.
I saw another shooting star. I swear man I love how i feel when i see one. It's so stellar and beautiful.
Omg. I just realized im not miserable for the first time in a LONG.and i mean LONG time.
i wonder how long it will last.
I think i might have a kidney infection...
and Julia thinks i need a colan cleansing.
And there is so many things i need to take care of. deep down inside I want to live.
I want a future.
and at this point i have none. at all.
it's pretty pathetic.
But i rather enjoy this moment of optimism i have rather than fucking it up with negative thoughts.
Tomorrow Papi turns 48
I love him when we're not fighting.
Its so nice to sit outside and have drinks with my fucking father. And smoke cigarettes and talk about life.
i want to enjoy the rest of the summer.
Please God... let me feel happy.
I want to be barefoot. I want to run wild and feel myself breaking free. I want to run towards the trees. I want to feel free.And I want to breathe.
Breathe in.
I want to inhale the nature. And i want to know that everything is going to be alright.
And thats what I want.
I'm at Papis right now. The trip here was decent. Boring but decent.
I already feel a little better.
Maybe a moment to yourself is the key...
I hope so.
We went to Jones Beach. It was so lively even at like 10 pm.
I want to play with my friends.
Im going to plan a game day. With fun activities. and fun people.
Even not so fun people should be fun that day.
I love my mina. The bitch cracks me up and makes me happy.
and news bloopers make me happy.
I saw another shooting star. I swear man I love how i feel when i see one. It's so stellar and beautiful.
Omg. I just realized im not miserable for the first time in a LONG.and i mean LONG time.
i wonder how long it will last.
I think i might have a kidney infection...
and Julia thinks i need a colan cleansing.
And there is so many things i need to take care of. deep down inside I want to live.
I want a future.
and at this point i have none. at all.
it's pretty pathetic.
But i rather enjoy this moment of optimism i have rather than fucking it up with negative thoughts.
Tomorrow Papi turns 48
I love him when we're not fighting.
Its so nice to sit outside and have drinks with my fucking father. And smoke cigarettes and talk about life.
i want to enjoy the rest of the summer.
Please God... let me feel happy.