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I've been really emotional lately. There isn't a rational explanation for any of this, I think, but it's pretty intense. I've been reading a lot more, which is terrific, I've been unsure of my job, which is normal for me, I've been super-affectionate toward my gf, which is also great, but little triggers are setting me off and I'm feeling on the verge of tears for no real reason. I have gone huge lengths of time without crying. I mean, I'm a guy, These stretches go for like 5 years at a time.
What the fuck is happening to me? Do I have brain cancer? Prostate cancer? WTF is going on? I'm seriously concerned about this, because honest to god-- sappy movies, love stories, fucking John Denver songs are getting me all worked up.
I'm a lot more isolated, which is a less pansy way of saying, I'm lonelier than I've been in a while (outside of my terrific gf, but that's a totally different type of interaction. I only want one person to fill that romantic emotional need :) ) but I do feel socially less adept than I have in years.
That said, I think it is a contributing factor, I definitely don't think it is the root of this. I'm seriously afraid of finding out I have some sort of tumor on the emotional part of my brain.
In other news, I'm sick of eating. I can't find anything that drives me wild, yet it is a daily need. I need some exciting food.
In other other news, anyone remember Monica Potter? She was in like 50 movies in 2 years, and I haven't heard from her since. She was pretty without being gorgeous, did some comedy, some drama, but I had utterly forgot about her until I randomly thought of her. Then, today, I see "Along Came a Spider" on Flix.
I hope my moment is still ahead of me.
What the fuck is happening to me? Do I have brain cancer? Prostate cancer? WTF is going on? I'm seriously concerned about this, because honest to god-- sappy movies, love stories, fucking John Denver songs are getting me all worked up.
I'm a lot more isolated, which is a less pansy way of saying, I'm lonelier than I've been in a while (outside of my terrific gf, but that's a totally different type of interaction. I only want one person to fill that romantic emotional need :) ) but I do feel socially less adept than I have in years.
That said, I think it is a contributing factor, I definitely don't think it is the root of this. I'm seriously afraid of finding out I have some sort of tumor on the emotional part of my brain.
In other news, I'm sick of eating. I can't find anything that drives me wild, yet it is a daily need. I need some exciting food.
In other other news, anyone remember Monica Potter? She was in like 50 movies in 2 years, and I haven't heard from her since. She was pretty without being gorgeous, did some comedy, some drama, but I had utterly forgot about her until I randomly thought of her. Then, today, I see "Along Came a Spider" on Flix.
I hope my moment is still ahead of me.