ah I really want to meet them and talk to them. oh and mentioning fans getting in touch with them... I am literally ALWAYS afraid of tweeting them because I don't want to seem like a bother and I get all worried that they are gonna like get so damn annoyed and hate me before they ever even meet me... I know its completely irrational sounding but one of my biggest fears(applying to EVERYONE i know) is being considered a bother or troublesome... hell I am afraid of commenting on LJ half the time... I can't even describe how anxious it makes me to like write a comment and double check it about 50 times before I post it... it fucking sucks >.> I think the only time I am not like that is when I am hyped in some way(but that only lasts for a little bit hence my current comment cause I just got back from like an hour walk around my town) or if I have been drinking... but again those relief of inhibitions is very temporary unless I know the people well or they are very easy to get along with... and even then I usually end up in a corner somewhere because people get annoyed trying to talk to me... cause I try but sometimes I can't think of how to even speak... ugh *hides*
A problem like thousands have them. If it really sucks, then you have to take action. Practise, practise, practise, practise. It's not just words. I'm constantly pushing myself into whole training sessions regarding my own fears and there is one that bothers me but I can't really train myself calm 'cause I lack the opportunities to confront myself that way *lol* Though it's really anything but a bothersome fear :P
hahah yes yes I know u_u i tell myself this and thats why... well number one why I moved halfway across the world away from EVERYONE that I know and love by myself... also it is why I go to different meetings and stuff around my town here whenever I can... I am always awkward at first but I THINK i have become a little better at interacting *in my ind anyway* XD
I find it easier to love others but loving myself is very difficult thing to do. I love this world i am travelig and I love the people I meet. As for adult i still have 2 years before Iam 25 ;) so I have time to grow up
Because it's not possible :P If I may give you a hint: you get into that state of what ppl call "love yourself" by reducing the things you don't like about yourself. You do it by changing them or by embracing them, both with the same effect. The more you reduce your resistance AGAINST yourself, the more you fill yourself up with love. Last mentioned is the actual goal. ;)
Yes yes. And ince i finally got away from he States I have realized how toxic an environment I was living In. I cant even describe how much better I am getting
yes I have realized it and I am making such an amazing recovery. I am so much happier abroad(ASIA) than I could ever be in the states.,.. my family is slowly coming to the realization I have no intentions of returning home
A family that has love is connected by it over time and distance. The more they love you, the more they should be capable of letting go off you to see you walk your path with smiles. *huggles*
*smiles and hugs you* yes that is what believe too~ My mum is the hardest one to convince though she is slowly coming around to the fact that I really mean it. I think because she can see how much happier I am in photos and such might help that too. Most of the time I just get told how proud of me everyone is... because I am the only person so far to go after a dream like this and not give up... probably because give up is not in my vocabulary ^~^
Haha you make me actually like that's true. Not many people can make me feel like i can be proud of myself ^^;;; I plan to keep it up~ no backing down!
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A problem like thousands have them. If it really sucks, then you have to take action. Practise, practise, practise, practise. It's not just words. I'm constantly pushing myself into whole training sessions regarding my own fears and there is one that bothers me but I can't really train myself calm 'cause I lack the opportunities to confront myself that way *lol* Though it's really anything but a bothersome fear :P
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"love by myself"
It's a typo mistake but it's actually the key to a grown personality ;D Fill yourself up with love towards yourself and the world around you!
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Because it's not possible :P If I may give you a hint: you get into that state of what ppl call "love yourself" by reducing the things you don't like about yourself. You do it by changing them or by embracing them, both with the same effect. The more you reduce your resistance AGAINST yourself, the more you fill yourself up with love. Last mentioned is the actual goal. ;)
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As long as it gets better and you realize it's amazing :D
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A family that has love is connected by it over time and distance. The more they love you, the more they should be capable of letting go off you to see you walk your path with smiles. *huggles*
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You can be proud of yourself, too. :3 Keep it up, girl!
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