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Everythings changed now..I dont understand anything at all right now. I dont understand God
People Life..I seriously think I am now at my loswet point right now,
Dont you ever wonder why God does things to hurt people? Hurt people so
much they just want to die? I mean I thought he was to make things all
better..?Im doubting so many things right now and these past 2 weeks
have not helped me cheer up at all. For 1) Doctors-they bring the WORST news ever...Theyre put on this planet to ruin my life*no joke either*
2)God-Like i said is so confusing..Everytime something good happens he changes everything..For the worst part.. I mean as soon as i start to get my life back together things fall through again..And I hate hate hate telling people about it because its either they think I just want attention or Im a drama queen or what not but its not even like that at all..Im not fucking trying to get attention or shit!!Its like dude who the fuck am i supposed to turn to when everyone doubts you..youre fucking family boyfriend and all youre friends!! Yeah I guess i deserve that--but im trying to change so much and its actually working but when you get this fucking stressed out then what? grab a fucking razor blade?
I just want to escape and never come back.
2)God-Like i said is so confusing..Everytime something good happens he changes everything..For the worst part.. I mean as soon as i start to get my life back together things fall through again..And I hate hate hate telling people about it because its either they think I just want attention or Im a drama queen or what not but its not even like that at all..Im not fucking trying to get attention or shit!!Its like dude who the fuck am i supposed to turn to when everyone doubts you..youre fucking family boyfriend and all youre friends!! Yeah I guess i deserve that--but im trying to change so much and its actually working but when you get this fucking stressed out then what? grab a fucking razor blade?
I just want to escape and never come back.