too many tears have been shed...
hi...umm...idk where i left off and frankly i dont really care...im gonna guess and say i left off on friday b/c that would only make sense...anyways...on saterday i went and got my dress fitted and went to the mall with my mom and she bought me some clothes...then after that i went to the mall again with lexi and we had fun...we saw perry there and we were like "YO DUUUDE!" and he was like ummm...hi *wave*...lol...then i went back to lexi's for awhile...which was fun and then i came home and i talked to lexi and jay (sum kid idk but lexi does)...and mike called...and i was excited as usual but then the words..."i told you i have a g/f right?" came out...i could have died i was liek what the fuck...but all i got out was..."no"...then he was like "oh...i thought you'd get mad"...well no fucking shit ill be mad...i mean come on?...you fucking use me and say we could go out and shit and then tell me youve had a g/f the whole time which i thought you broke up with like 2/3 weeks ago(b/c you told me)...and im on the fone with him...not believing this is happenign again to me...then he wants to hang out with me the next day?...i was saying in my head...yeah so i can punch your fucking face in...all i said was "i cant i have a baby shower"...god...im such a wuss wen it comes to guys...well...guys that hurt me anyways...and lexi was trying to cheer me up...thanks so much lexi....but it didnt work...then she had her friend im me...she tryed...thanks...it didnt work...am i just like a fucking target?...am i saying "use me...USE ME!" to every guy i fucking like?…I mean this really is pissing me off…and I don’t know how this can happen so many fucking times to one person…I never know its happening until its too late too…last night…wen I got off the fone I threw up…b/c I was shaking b/c I didn’t want to cry on the fone with him and I was getting chest pains and I could like barely see b/c I was so unfocused….and then I cryed myself to sleep…if wanna try and cheer me up call me, im me, or leave a comment b/c I definitely need it right now…
-worthless whore
-worthless whore