decisions
I have decided something.
I can no longer allow my own poor self-image to get in the way of having a good time. I hadn't gone swimming in years up until yesterday, and I hate what I have been missing. I haven't been going to many social outings or places with lots of people, because I have nothing to wear and I dread shopping for clothes at my current weight. So, I am a hermit. The girls are not an excuse. Children and babies are portable. I hate looking like a frumpy mom, but I hate forcing my toddler to stay inside on beautiful summer days, just because I don't want to be seen, even more. I'm missing so much fun!
So we're going swimming again today. And tomorrow. Then maybe sometime this week, we'll go to the park. Or the mall. Or an indoor playground. I do need some decent clothing, and I may pick up one or two pieces to get me through a couple weeks. Although it isn't just the clothing that keeps me inside, or my body. It's the damned heat as well.
I also want to branch out and try some different restaurants in this area (sans children). I've lived here most of my life and I eat at all the same places. This has mostly been for financial reasons, but I think we can afford to try a new, nicer, restaurant once every couple of months or so. Time to find out what our city has to offer!
Oh, and another decision. We need more classic books. I need to read them, and I want to own them so that our girls has access to them later. I bought some Charles Dickens books last night as well - 4 of his classics. I've never read them, and I LOVE reading. Time to broaden my horizons. ♥
I can no longer allow my own poor self-image to get in the way of having a good time. I hadn't gone swimming in years up until yesterday, and I hate what I have been missing. I haven't been going to many social outings or places with lots of people, because I have nothing to wear and I dread shopping for clothes at my current weight. So, I am a hermit. The girls are not an excuse. Children and babies are portable. I hate looking like a frumpy mom, but I hate forcing my toddler to stay inside on beautiful summer days, just because I don't want to be seen, even more. I'm missing so much fun!
So we're going swimming again today. And tomorrow. Then maybe sometime this week, we'll go to the park. Or the mall. Or an indoor playground. I do need some decent clothing, and I may pick up one or two pieces to get me through a couple weeks. Although it isn't just the clothing that keeps me inside, or my body. It's the damned heat as well.
I also want to branch out and try some different restaurants in this area (sans children). I've lived here most of my life and I eat at all the same places. This has mostly been for financial reasons, but I think we can afford to try a new, nicer, restaurant once every couple of months or so. Time to find out what our city has to offer!
Oh, and another decision. We need more classic books. I need to read them, and I want to own them so that our girls has access to them later. I bought some Charles Dickens books last night as well - 4 of his classics. I've never read them, and I LOVE reading. Time to broaden my horizons. ♥