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Apr 04, 2007 00:11

even though jamie and i have lost touch incredibly [my fault, 100%], i feel as though we are still connected like old times. we talked today, like real conversation, she updated me on her and peter's current situation and i would be the biggest liar if i said i have no idea what shes feelings.
its ironic that with her 4.5 YEAR relationship and my 4.5 MONTH one we are having the exact worries.
and i wish i had the answers. and wish i knew what to say. but in the end all i find myself saying is "i know what you mean" or "that hurts" or "aww". not very useful advice, but who will turn down beimg able to vent to someone and get minimum input from them?
ive come to the conclusion, no relationship is perfect. if you think yours is, wait a little more time, you'll get the real deal sooner than later.
you don't realize the good times till you've had the worst.
you don't realize the bad times till you've had the best.

sucks don't it? but you'll learn to deal with these little imperfections eventually. and you both will learn how to react and what to do when the other is feeling a certain emotion, its how you grow to know each other.

he'll learn when you just need a flower to brighten your day. or even just a sensual kiss.
or when you're upset about not getting enough quality time, that he shouldm't leave you to go be with his friends for an hour.
or when you have the habit of getting upset when they underexagerate how long they'll be away, than they'll start overexagerating so when they do get back sooner you are thrilled.
they'll learn surprises are fantastic, but not too often.
that when you said an email just to tell them you love them, is a sign that you'd like those little reminders as well..
and that the little things mean so much more than "little".
that when they proove they were listening by bringing up something you said later on is a wonderful WONDERFUL feeling. like by buying you a cadbury cream egg cause he remembered you said you love them.
and lastly, that when you say you want to be left alone, never to actually leave you alone, stay by her side and just hold her and act like you're just a blanket.
[etc...]

just catch onto mannerisms and adapt to them..
i don't even know what to say anymore. i am at a loss of words right now.
no, i have words, just no structure to them.

ps: and when she's sick her "being your number 1 priority" should be a true statement. esp when she doesnt know whats wrong with her and is freaking out about.
def dont leave her alone with that feeling.

how can you love me, when you don't understand how to love me?
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