my heart's broken and it's all my fault
Okay. So I am not drinking ever again. Okay I am. I admit it. But bad things happen. Well it wasn't all that bad but I make decisions I WOULD NOT, under any circumstances, make if I was sober. Okay.
REWIND.
Thursday: Drumlin, Late Night for a snack, Joe leaves the table to go get some food of some kind... The rest of the guys (including the RA that barely knows us...) "You guys are definitely getting back together" Which is EXACTLY what I want.
Friday: Party. Me, Amber, Joe, Dave, Eric. Partied with Dave and Eric before and Eric wants me. Me: stupid. Drink a lot... Shots, beer, that kind of stuff. Come back to the dorms, Amber, me and Eric go up to my room. Amber leaves to go get Toppers. Eric comes back from the bathroom and kisses me... yeah. I didn't stop it. Amber comes back, we stop. Amber leaves later and Eric stays. Making out... nothing else I swear. Anna comes in and then goes back down to Mike and Joe's room. Pretty sure she said something to them.
Saturday: Talk to Joe cuz I know he knows and he's not happy with me. Upset, etc. Talk to him... Evidently he called me and I didn't answer so he came upstairs to see me cuz he wanted to hang out. He heard the futon making noise (we weren't doing anything to make it squeak so whatever)... He was really upset. Like I can't even tell you how much it broke my heart. Cuz in case you missed the memo, I am still HEAD OVER HEALS in love with this guy. (so why was I with Eric? I don't even know). He broke down and told me about how he had it all planned to ask me out again on November 7 (that's the day we made it official last year). And he was even going to do it at 7:00... yeah. And now he's like I don't even want to see you anymore. One night and it's over. And my heart is broken. Not only cuz I know I can't have him, but because I know I broke his heart too.
I'm hoping like all hell that somehow I'll be able to get him back.
REWIND.
Thursday: Drumlin, Late Night for a snack, Joe leaves the table to go get some food of some kind... The rest of the guys (including the RA that barely knows us...) "You guys are definitely getting back together" Which is EXACTLY what I want.
Friday: Party. Me, Amber, Joe, Dave, Eric. Partied with Dave and Eric before and Eric wants me. Me: stupid. Drink a lot... Shots, beer, that kind of stuff. Come back to the dorms, Amber, me and Eric go up to my room. Amber leaves to go get Toppers. Eric comes back from the bathroom and kisses me... yeah. I didn't stop it. Amber comes back, we stop. Amber leaves later and Eric stays. Making out... nothing else I swear. Anna comes in and then goes back down to Mike and Joe's room. Pretty sure she said something to them.
Saturday: Talk to Joe cuz I know he knows and he's not happy with me. Upset, etc. Talk to him... Evidently he called me and I didn't answer so he came upstairs to see me cuz he wanted to hang out. He heard the futon making noise (we weren't doing anything to make it squeak so whatever)... He was really upset. Like I can't even tell you how much it broke my heart. Cuz in case you missed the memo, I am still HEAD OVER HEALS in love with this guy. (so why was I with Eric? I don't even know). He broke down and told me about how he had it all planned to ask me out again on November 7 (that's the day we made it official last year). And he was even going to do it at 7:00... yeah. And now he's like I don't even want to see you anymore. One night and it's over. And my heart is broken. Not only cuz I know I can't have him, but because I know I broke his heart too.
I'm hoping like all hell that somehow I'll be able to get him back.