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i cant stand it.i dont no wuts rong with me.i jus feel so alone.so empty.theres nothing ne where for me.and the 1 person that i feel really cares about me cant even talk to me on the fone.its bad enough i dont see her ne more.its jus......i dont no.i thought there might have bin sumthing for me in yonkers.jus a little sumthin.but....i was wrong...again.cant even remember the last time i was rite about sumthin.i jus wanna leave.i jus wanna leave everything.start over.sumtimes i wish i never met the pple i no.wonder wut i wouldve bin like,how i wouldve felt if i never new them.the only person i cant imagine not noing is erica.shes always there for me.mayb not physically but shes there.every 1 else is so far........so far........
im starting to consider leaving.nothing is gonna make mylife ne better.and even if it goes good slightly,my fuckin father knows how to fuck everything up.he keeps hurting me and hurting me and constantly threatens to send me away.this time its my turn.and i no if i do it im actually gonna go through with it,unlike his pussy ass.
so many things go throuhg my mind every minute of the day it drives me crazy.and i cant stop it.im gonna end up losing it if i keep going the way i am now.
i need sumone.i dont no who.i dont no whether i need a companion,my bestfrend,my sister or som1 else.jus to be there with me.but i dont even no if that would make ne thing rite.or better for that matter.i no im a loner.but am i meant to be alone?i mean, really alone?thats all ive ever truly felt since i bin here.and no amount of tears can change it.whether their clear...or red.
im...im gonna go..i dont wanna type ne more.
im starting to consider leaving.nothing is gonna make mylife ne better.and even if it goes good slightly,my fuckin father knows how to fuck everything up.he keeps hurting me and hurting me and constantly threatens to send me away.this time its my turn.and i no if i do it im actually gonna go through with it,unlike his pussy ass.
so many things go throuhg my mind every minute of the day it drives me crazy.and i cant stop it.im gonna end up losing it if i keep going the way i am now.
i need sumone.i dont no who.i dont no whether i need a companion,my bestfrend,my sister or som1 else.jus to be there with me.but i dont even no if that would make ne thing rite.or better for that matter.i no im a loner.but am i meant to be alone?i mean, really alone?thats all ive ever truly felt since i bin here.and no amount of tears can change it.whether their clear...or red.
im...im gonna go..i dont wanna type ne more.