Unsure...
Well hmm... lots of new things mostly not good but some good. So I'll start from thursday. I finished up my classes and headed home at like 7:30. Called my friend Matt and we ended up going to the bar and had a great night. But I missed Ashley at the bar tho which kinda sucked. Well then came my beloved doctors appointment.. That didn't go well at all. I had already passed two kidney stones and my doctor gets the cat scan results back and tells me I have two more in my kidney... which means I will again have to go thru all the pain again. I also have blood and an infection in my urine which is a bad thing. On top of that I am still in pain but I should not be. So something is wrong and my doctor has no clue as to what. Only good news I got from him was that I can drink. Saturday night was a lot of fun. It was our beach party and it was a lot of fun. Met my new second big sister who is awesome. sunday was ok nothing much happened. But for some reason I've been really down lately. I realized that when I was at the bar and the party that like no girls even look at me or anything... I guess I'm uglier than I thought. I know I have people who would love to be in a relationship but for one reason or another it just wouldn't work. Then the one I'd really like to get things to work I haven't talked to her since wensday and hasn't even left me a messege till this morning when I left her one. I just feel like like i'm not wanted. I try my hardest to always be there for people and reach out but no one reaches out for me or do special things for me. I mean Ashley did but she is so afraid to really open up I dunno anymore I just need to be a monk with Mike. well off to dinner soon.