Tired of my existance...
I don't know what I'm doing anymore...Dunno who I am. I feel so lost and just..empty. The way I feel, the way I'm alone all the time. I can't take much more of this. I don't get it either. Why am I so alone? Why can't any of the girls I fall in love with, the girls who I actually connect with the most, why do they treat me like some sort freak and push me away and make up excuses like things didn't spark and i'm too close of friends. Why is this? I'm growing so sick of it. I think I'm doomed to be alone and nothing anyone says can prove me wrong anymore. 2 short relationships I had sucked. Everything I attempt as a relationship blows up in my face, and ontop of that, I never see my friends anymore. I just want to go somewhere different..or something. Move away from this, because apparently no one here is actually for me. Atleast no one I find and no one I get close to. Apparently becoming friends means your offlimits to girls. Sometimes, and even though I'm not saying I'm going to kill myself, I'm glad I don't have a gun. Because I really think it would be rested in my mouth alot and with my finger twitching on the trigger....