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havnt updated in a while becuase ive been busy with effing school shit and softball. softball is going good. practices are fun. but only when im in a good mood. when im pissed off. dont mess with me. im a total complete bitch. but other than that. school sucks as usual. probably getting 2 c's. mom will flip a shit on me and then shits just gonna get screwed up even more. gjkhgkjshgkjshgkjs. tims here for the weekend. parents went away. watched ladder 49 tonight. god i cried a fucking river. i always cry. what the fuck is my problem. im always thinking about things. always thinking about other people and shit. i need to just stop thinking. then all of my problems will go away. people need to stop changing so fast. im not ready yet. i think that whenever im not ready for something im gonna put up a huge red flag saying STOP YOU CANNOT CHANGE I WILL NOT LET YOU! god i wish i could reallly do that. it would make things so much easier. i really just wish that things wouldnt change so quickly. like freshmen year is already almost over. jordans leaving this summer to go to southern. probably wont see him alot. joses going to bunnell. im just being a fucking bitch. i dont want things to change. im not effing ready. dont you people see that. i know its life but i dont want it to be like this. i just cant handle it at all.
sorry i really just had to get all that out. its been bothering me like alll effing week.
sorry i really just had to get all that out. its been bothering me like alll effing week.