There is no hope.
I'm such a selfish bitch. I got what I deserved. There are so many things I want to apologize for, but I just can't find a way to do it that will work effectively. I think he misses me a little, but I could be wrong. I remember every poem he wrote me, they were all so sweet...I shouldn't have started to take advantage of what we had. Today in school I had the worst stomach ache, I kept thinking of at Lake Gaston and the Celtic Festival and at his house I just want it back so bad. But I can't always get what I want, and I'm finally starting to understand that. Even though I still love him with all my heart, I have to and do respect his decision and will go with it, no matter how it hurts. So I'll stop the guilt, annoying him, writing poems that are influencing nothing and just...carry on with my life 'til his final decision has been made, if I ever know.
(PS, Sorry for the slight rude comment in your lj, it means nothing, I just had to vent or something. Before I wrote this. ><;;)
(PS, Sorry for the slight rude comment in your lj, it means nothing, I just had to vent or something. Before I wrote this. ><;;)