there's nothing i wouldn't do to leave it all behind
I broke up with Justin tonight.
I can't pretend any more. I want to feel like I used to but I can't and I can't keep lying to myself and him.
It hurts, but not as much as I thought it would...and not as much as he is. I think I hurt more knowing that I actually didn't want to hurt him. But there was nothing else to be done. It's not fair to me to keep this up. Things just haven't been the same for months.
Just trying to lose myself in cheerful fictional characters and happy music. Not working so well.
Let's try to distract me with this post shall we?
Tomorrow morning Mandi, Caroline and I are going to check out a gorgeous apartment for next year. We were going to sign a lease before the break but there was only one apartment available and we were too slow, but he emailed us the other day to say another's opened up. I think we're going to jump on it.
Then tomorrow night, for my film studies screening, we're watching Wizard of Oz. I don't think I've been able to watch that since I sat through the musical ten million times but it's still and will always be one of my favourite movies.
Hopefully coming home this weekend. I need it now more than ever.
Yeah that didn't help so much. Ugh.
I can't pretend any more. I want to feel like I used to but I can't and I can't keep lying to myself and him.
It hurts, but not as much as I thought it would...and not as much as he is. I think I hurt more knowing that I actually didn't want to hurt him. But there was nothing else to be done. It's not fair to me to keep this up. Things just haven't been the same for months.
Just trying to lose myself in cheerful fictional characters and happy music. Not working so well.
Let's try to distract me with this post shall we?
Tomorrow morning Mandi, Caroline and I are going to check out a gorgeous apartment for next year. We were going to sign a lease before the break but there was only one apartment available and we were too slow, but he emailed us the other day to say another's opened up. I think we're going to jump on it.
Then tomorrow night, for my film studies screening, we're watching Wizard of Oz. I don't think I've been able to watch that since I sat through the musical ten million times but it's still and will always be one of my favourite movies.
Hopefully coming home this weekend. I need it now more than ever.
Yeah that didn't help so much. Ugh.