bonfire
I've been working till ghastly hours since Monday. Although its only been three days, it still seems like there's too few hours inbetween.
I wonder what it would be like if human beings don't need sleep, if we could just function and function and function and never feel tired.
Lol, I guess it would make the world a strange place.
Yesterday was 1am, today was close to midnight.
Tomorrow I'd strive to go home earlier; and make good my "I want to go home by latest 8pm" wish.
It used to be "I want to go home at 6:30 SHARP" but i guess that really isn't possible.
Of course work really isn't a full bed of roses. Some people do less but are extremely capable of licking a few boots or physically seducing a person of higher position.
These people stay; but their brains remain stagnant and they never seem fully sure of what they are doing. In other words, they don't really learn anything at all.
But the good thing about boot-licking people/people who use the art of seduction in work is that they can cover their asses up very well.
This trait is also known as the art of shrugging off all responsibility when things go wrong; the blame-pushers.
Its always the "I don't know why THEY did it wrongly!" and then complain to said higher-position person behind them, who in turn, creates a big hoo-ha.
Often resulting in the hurt and unnecessary ego-bruising to the innocent parties involved in the hoo-ha.
The most ironic thing is that the higher-up is also so full of themselves and their protege that they make the best tag team in the entire world.
The I AM BETTER THAN THOU tag team.
To me, they just look like a bunch of kids, still stuck in their primary school play of tag.
I have a small ounce of respect for the higher up, simply because, with their ability to talk so much, they're actually quite good at what they do.
Which is to sell our services, but the sad thing is, when they know they do well in speech, they tend to talk too damned much.
I have no respect for the protege though, I often wonder what the hell is this person still here, and then I start to wonder how long it will take before everyone,
and I mean everyone, bosses included feedback to each other on how lousy their performance is.
Well, sex sells. Problem is, i don't even find protege relatively good looking; perhaps its the lack of brains...
But of course it doesn't really affect or involve me, except for the fact that protege constantly needs me to do her thinking for her and occasionally asks for irritating favors or assistance.
Then there's the issue of people never being satisfied.
You do ten good things, but they'll still always pick on that one bad spot.
They want everyone to be perfect; I guess they've forgotten how it was like to be new and trying hard.
I think I'm trying doubly/triply hard; and am getting increasingly irritated when they make jokes about my still yet to be perfect but improving dramatically attendance.
For someone who was late 8 out of 10 mornings, to someone who is now late 2-4 times a month by marginal values, I am very proud of myself.
And I honestly don't give a shit about the 2-4 times when I'm late cause of traffic or whatsoever minute reasons.
Not as if I like to be late and have my saturday off taken from me, especially when I work till godforsaken hours at night, almost every night.
If given me, I think this though this punctuality saturday off is a good encouragement for people to come early,
but it is also an extremely demoralizing thing. Its quite ludicrous to have no saturday off just because you were marginally late or late for one day (but maybe 15mins) for the whole month, especially when you work so hard and you're so exhausted.
They should also have an appointed "hardwork saturday off"
Hahahah, I can never understand things on a managerial/company level, oh well.
I still really enjoy my job though, don't think otherwise. Just a few opinions that I think can be argued and raised within a company's structure.
And my dad just got retrenched.
Cue family drama.
I expect a lot of people, relatives etc who will come and say their piece about the matter.
Especially when I am not in so good terms with my dad, and the fact that they think I'm the youngest and therefore most immature out of the whole family.
I don't expect I will take it kindly, but I will try not to flare up or stand up for my own opinions, because it will well be overwritten.
Especially monetary issues. Because as of now, my parents still give me allowances, not a hugeass amount but a small yet significant one.
A habit I intended to kick once I started out working full time. But as of now, with this small income, am unable to.
I guess this drives me to do it sooner than I thought.
You see, even while reading this you might be thinking "what the hell? allowance still?"
But yeah, working your ass off when you've just started off doesn't equivalent being filthy rich in a short time. But other than that small daily allowance, everything else
is out of my own pocket. Smokes, drinks, clothes, food, travel. I think the last time my parents bought me something was when I was still in secondary school,
even then I had to ask for it. lol, presents etc.
Actually, I don't expect anyone to understand what I am talking about or think like me for a second. But then again, if you don't understand I'd rather not hear your opinions on it.
Your opinions are yours to keep, as are mine. There isn't a right or wrong thing in this world, just a matter or mindsets. But sometimes very different mindsets can have very adverse results.
But it isn't the end of the world and I never thought it would be.
Just means I have to work harder, and if I intend to do my best for this company and my team, I do hope the returns are just as well.
Well, i intend to have the immune to lack of sleep mentality, I can do 12 hours of work for the whole week kind of mindset.
Independence is just a mountain-climb away. I CAN DO IT! ~
For now, I'm too tired, I need to recharge.
Onwards to battle tomorrow!