Hello, i'm tapping a connection back to earth.
Well, hello hello, I am, still alive!
Wow!
Work has been hell, even more so hell than before. The trip to Japan is looming over really like a storm because I haven't found time to even pack or put my thoughts to it. I had a nightmare last night that I was terribly underpacked. No, its not that i'm not looking forward to it, by every ounce of me, i am. I'm just... so busy, busy would be an understatement.
November has so far been a shitty month for me, I'm glad its ending. I had brought some billing and stuff home to do even today, but I've decided to be a bitch and have some me-time today. Its not like its a terrible struggle to cope with, because even if you can't cope things have to be done, by hook or by crook. Its not like you have time to mope around and think about how miserable your life/role is. Its not like you can say no or tell them "no, you do it, i have so many on my hands already!" to your superiors simply because they're your superiors. But sometimes, you just hope that someone actually thinks in your shoes and lends a tiny weeny helping hand. A simple, "here, i can do this faster since you're so caught up, let me help you. anyway its for our sakes" But no, even if something is passed to someone else to do, it comes in a fucked up circle right back to your lap. There, right when it was supposed to be handled by someone else, it comes back to you (oh, no matter if you have no fuckin' clue what its about because obvs its your job to find out anyway)
I mean, seriously, if I have 10 things to do and you add an 11th to me that is important (btw, so are my other 10 things), how will that help anyone's speed, when you can obviously, do it in 10 minutes. If I had three brains, 10 hands and can teleport, i wouldn't mind. Isn't it obvious there's only one of me?
but you see, so not the one to cry here. crying never helps anything. neither does moping around.
so, the plan is, just keep doing it, keep on doing it, keep going and going until this fuse runs out and the world catches fire. keep running until the time comes and everything just breaks. Its not soon, and its definitely not NOW.
Well, work rant aside. There has been some small, but pleasant things.
"slowly u will find the beauty of this world in every single night"
Its a little crazy how somebody can say things that make you smile so easily; I guess he does have that sort of effect on me. I don't care for what reason, I care for the here and now, the present in which he makes me comfortable in my own skin.
Wow!
Work has been hell, even more so hell than before. The trip to Japan is looming over really like a storm because I haven't found time to even pack or put my thoughts to it. I had a nightmare last night that I was terribly underpacked. No, its not that i'm not looking forward to it, by every ounce of me, i am. I'm just... so busy, busy would be an understatement.
November has so far been a shitty month for me, I'm glad its ending. I had brought some billing and stuff home to do even today, but I've decided to be a bitch and have some me-time today. Its not like its a terrible struggle to cope with, because even if you can't cope things have to be done, by hook or by crook. Its not like you have time to mope around and think about how miserable your life/role is. Its not like you can say no or tell them "no, you do it, i have so many on my hands already!" to your superiors simply because they're your superiors. But sometimes, you just hope that someone actually thinks in your shoes and lends a tiny weeny helping hand. A simple, "here, i can do this faster since you're so caught up, let me help you. anyway its for our sakes" But no, even if something is passed to someone else to do, it comes in a fucked up circle right back to your lap. There, right when it was supposed to be handled by someone else, it comes back to you (oh, no matter if you have no fuckin' clue what its about because obvs its your job to find out anyway)
I mean, seriously, if I have 10 things to do and you add an 11th to me that is important (btw, so are my other 10 things), how will that help anyone's speed, when you can obviously, do it in 10 minutes. If I had three brains, 10 hands and can teleport, i wouldn't mind. Isn't it obvious there's only one of me?
but you see, so not the one to cry here. crying never helps anything. neither does moping around.
so, the plan is, just keep doing it, keep on doing it, keep going and going until this fuse runs out and the world catches fire. keep running until the time comes and everything just breaks. Its not soon, and its definitely not NOW.
Well, work rant aside. There has been some small, but pleasant things.
"slowly u will find the beauty of this world in every single night"
Its a little crazy how somebody can say things that make you smile so easily; I guess he does have that sort of effect on me. I don't care for what reason, I care for the here and now, the present in which he makes me comfortable in my own skin.