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ASS-ESSMENT IS OFFICIALLY OVER!
i managed to get everything done, even though, not perfectly, but still i managed to get everything done. a big thank you also goes to my mum, who stayed up the whole night yesterday to help me get things done. she was very supportive too! i had a major worry attack around 4am when i realized how much more i had to do and i was like "omg, i'm suddenly very scared that i can't complete it!" with every minute that passed my heart was pounding, seriously pounding and the thought of just not showing up for the assessment did stay in my head for awhile.
but no matter the outcome, its over, at least for now. just let me pass and go to my comms. =s
ah, but joy! do you know what day today is?? its the 20th! MY L7D~~~~~ oh my baby. i finally opened it from its foamy, bubble-wrap cage!
and of course i watched it.
and....
SPOTTED.
thats me! i burst into tears the moment i saw my checkered blue cap; and then the camera pans, and you see Hyde.
;______________;
thats right, thats just after when i called his name and he smiled and nodded at me. I REALLY WAS , THIS DAMN CLOSE.
that's me, that's me! i'm there! i'm there! i'm forever sealed in the memory of a DVD! how cool is that?
i really cried. i can't even explain my feelings.
just really, thank you Laruku for touring HongKong. it is in this way, that a girl like me, in a place that is so far from Japan, called Singapore,
can fly over to see you live.
and now, i'm in the DVD. for like 6 seconds, inching my way across the SEA of fans, the security in my path, the only obstruction between me and His Royal Fairness.
and then, the beautiful Anata. i wailed again, watching this and remembering everything. how i was watching "Light My Fire 98" and lamenting about how touching it was to have this song and all the fans mass singing to such gorgeous lyrics. i imagined how nice it would be if i could join in as well.
it was always, "well one day i'll see them live." one day, one day, 24th May 2008; the day i cried so hard my vision was blurry.
胸にいつの日にも輝く
あなたがいるから
涙枯れ果てても大切な
あなたがいるから...
(My heart will shine on for the rest of my days
Because of you
Even if my tears withered away,
It's because of my precious, you)
i'm gonna show this to EVERYONE. i swear. this is my moment, let me bask in it. XD
this is really a good post-stress activity. i'm glad i waited to watch it. i'm so glad. i'm so glad i went, i'm so glad i was part of it. i'm so glad to be part of them.
as
muirin darling said, its just as the DVD booklet says it "L'7 is the fruits of a long time trust between L'arc~en~Ciel and you" EPIC TRUTH, TOTALLY. XD
i need to so hang up my L'7 poster.
mmkay, its gonna make me cry somemore. T___T
aw, i'm so tired, from the lack of sleep for the past few weeks, but i'm so damned happy. =D