kicked when your down
WoW.. What am i doing? Ive had such a fake mask on for the past week. I cant take my life right now, I can't. Everything is just fucking falling apart. Me n My moms relationship is over theres nothing fucking left. As much as i try to make it better i fail. Ive missed tara soo much I havent had time for her and shes been sick and in the hospital. She actually went to school today. She lost 8 lbs I could feel it when i hugged her... Kalob doesnt have his fuckin cell phone and he never calls me, i feel like im losing him.. he siad he would call me at 330 today well its 418 and my phone hasnt fuckin rang. and if he does call he has to get off in like 5 minutes and says hell call the next day but he doesnt and tehn yells at me when i dont get to go see him but hwo am i supposed to call him and tell him? Ive told Shawn alot lately.. but it still seems were not as close he was over here everyday or atleast every weekend and hes not anymore.. I feel as if im stuck in this motherfucking house. Ive wanted to cut so bad Ive been soo strong but its getting harder and harder. Im gonna stay strong as long as I can.. but im just breaking down. Thats all. Im gonna go lay in bed.