well well well......
hola, bitches! haha jkin. how is everyone?? hope all is well. i know i am good cause i got the internet in my room now, thanks to the wonderful mr jake green. i love him. good thing hes here this summer, he makes it interesting,;). soooo, now that i have the internet in my room i am way addicted. haha. damnit to hell. eh, ill get over it one day. haha.
im so excited to poissily be having a house. jesus i cannot wait. no more dorm life. today we were approved for a loan for me for school. YESYESYES!! thank u jesus. and with the excess of the loan we are gonna put it towards my house!! yipee. nice things come to those who wait, eh he!!!
so yea, the boy front? well it still sucks, and i still get thru it. so i guess thats saying something. i dont let it dictate my life. but it still has a major role in it. all these basketball camps are just a constant reminder, that i cant have eeverything. but i wish i could. damnit.
natalie and angela saw him both in the asme day, kinda pissed i didnt get to, and kinda gla cause i knew i prolly woulda broke down. temptation does set in quite frequently tho i muyst admit. its easier now that my cell phone is shut off tho. haha. sweet life i say.
next semester is gona be a real test for me. i brought my grades up so HIGH last year and this is the test. i WILL keep them high. my goal is a 4.0. i know i can do it. its in me, but will i do it?? lets hope..... mom would love me forever then haha.
things with my friends are kinda the same. i try not to hang around too much cause i get annoyed. so i limit my time. and thats good. they just cannot let me have my personal space. every chance one of them gets, they are telling someone about my surgery. damnit, i hate that. i just want to be able to tell who i want, when i want, and some people take that away from me. well, that is why i confide in my shu crew. i love them.
my friend ramone acroos the hall is a sweetheart. he bought me a slurpee today,. he loves me. lol. i love him. hes cute, sometimes i wish i was attracted toblack guys. life would be so much easier on the sex front. haha imma balla, shot calla.
this past weekend i was home and it was nice. spent some time at beths, it was cool. went over alans. it was weird. i just cant stand being around ryan woods sometimes. he erks me. but thers still something about that boy, i dont know what the fuck it is. but i hate it, i hate that i like it. weird, i know. but hey its emily, somethings gotta be werid or its not right. haha. reject.
i miss claire sometimes. she was a good roommate, when she cleaned her own dishes. haha. but i do miss her, shes doing well in AA and im proud of her for that. go claire.
school starts in a little over one month, YESYESYESYES!! siena means so much to me, and i am jsut so glad to be back here. i love it here, i never wanna graduate. and as for my freshman year, i gues u could tell that by my grades. i wasnt going anywhere with those. thanks God i picked my act up. imma balla now. tell me about it son.......goof ball i am.
i turn 21 in less than 10 days. do u know what that means??? party at the boat on friday until mindnight, then the bar!! i love how all my shu crew is coming down. im so happy for that. i love them. i love garrett, chmiel, jake, brooke tiffany and everyone else, but those are the ones that are coming, o yea and nat too, how could i forget her???? iloveher.
this is a long entry, but i needed it, real bad. but it jsut doesnt feel like enuff. i dont know what i need. i need something and i hope i find it soon, maybe its him.......eh, fuck it.
well imma go now, enuff of this bring entry, if u are still reading, congrats u have just made t thru the most uneventful piece of writing known to man!! i love u,
Emily
im so excited to poissily be having a house. jesus i cannot wait. no more dorm life. today we were approved for a loan for me for school. YESYESYES!! thank u jesus. and with the excess of the loan we are gonna put it towards my house!! yipee. nice things come to those who wait, eh he!!!
so yea, the boy front? well it still sucks, and i still get thru it. so i guess thats saying something. i dont let it dictate my life. but it still has a major role in it. all these basketball camps are just a constant reminder, that i cant have eeverything. but i wish i could. damnit.
natalie and angela saw him both in the asme day, kinda pissed i didnt get to, and kinda gla cause i knew i prolly woulda broke down. temptation does set in quite frequently tho i muyst admit. its easier now that my cell phone is shut off tho. haha. sweet life i say.
next semester is gona be a real test for me. i brought my grades up so HIGH last year and this is the test. i WILL keep them high. my goal is a 4.0. i know i can do it. its in me, but will i do it?? lets hope..... mom would love me forever then haha.
things with my friends are kinda the same. i try not to hang around too much cause i get annoyed. so i limit my time. and thats good. they just cannot let me have my personal space. every chance one of them gets, they are telling someone about my surgery. damnit, i hate that. i just want to be able to tell who i want, when i want, and some people take that away from me. well, that is why i confide in my shu crew. i love them.
my friend ramone acroos the hall is a sweetheart. he bought me a slurpee today,. he loves me. lol. i love him. hes cute, sometimes i wish i was attracted toblack guys. life would be so much easier on the sex front. haha imma balla, shot calla.
this past weekend i was home and it was nice. spent some time at beths, it was cool. went over alans. it was weird. i just cant stand being around ryan woods sometimes. he erks me. but thers still something about that boy, i dont know what the fuck it is. but i hate it, i hate that i like it. weird, i know. but hey its emily, somethings gotta be werid or its not right. haha. reject.
i miss claire sometimes. she was a good roommate, when she cleaned her own dishes. haha. but i do miss her, shes doing well in AA and im proud of her for that. go claire.
school starts in a little over one month, YESYESYESYES!! siena means so much to me, and i am jsut so glad to be back here. i love it here, i never wanna graduate. and as for my freshman year, i gues u could tell that by my grades. i wasnt going anywhere with those. thanks God i picked my act up. imma balla now. tell me about it son.......goof ball i am.
i turn 21 in less than 10 days. do u know what that means??? party at the boat on friday until mindnight, then the bar!! i love how all my shu crew is coming down. im so happy for that. i love them. i love garrett, chmiel, jake, brooke tiffany and everyone else, but those are the ones that are coming, o yea and nat too, how could i forget her???? iloveher.
this is a long entry, but i needed it, real bad. but it jsut doesnt feel like enuff. i dont know what i need. i need something and i hope i find it soon, maybe its him.......eh, fuck it.
well imma go now, enuff of this bring entry, if u are still reading, congrats u have just made t thru the most uneventful piece of writing known to man!! i love u,
Emily